Well now my period showed up-- really early or really late depending on how you look at it. cramps suck.

also I've been feeling - is it perimenopuase.. is it just my regular depression/anxiety --is it from covid? or the fires ? or Trump.. I guess the feeling of impending doom is a toss up.

And then last night my cat betrayed me and slept next to M and not me. which isn't related to perimenopuase but I feel more relaxed with my Penny kitty cuddles and I had none last night.

And another betrayal..., sorry to turn this into period/perimenopause talk but..I have never dealt wtih a super heavy flow before and ..well..the floodgates have opened. I had to run to Walgreens because I was almost out of stuff, I bought a variety of levels of flow but I should have bought more of the heavy ones.

Heavy flow thinx are the bomb. If you want a coupon hit me up.

That would be great Trudy. Thanks

Sigh. Puppy woke me up from this lovely dream that I don't remember much of but it was like a movie or a romance novel. There were three sisters and they all fell in love but the part I remember was the eldest who secretly fell for a prince, but he was like, skinny and bespectacled and nerdy and wasn't normally a huge catch but they were in love and she introduced him to her sisters in this like, secret library/study filled with books and I woke up and was like "how come nobody looks at me like that with so much love in their eyes?" Brain.

What a twist on Beauty and the Beast: he's undesirable, but oh that library!

I emailed my supervisor and I'm taking a few sick days.

Get some well needed rest, Hil. May you recover quickly.

Take care of yourself, Hil.

Hil I hope you take care of yours lf and rest and feel better.