Today sucks. My alarm didn't go off I was late to therapy. Forgot to take my meds. Was going to finally see the dentist and just broke down

Called to cancel and explain. Asked to reschedule trying to be at least a little responsible and git a talk about how valuable their time is and they woildnt charge a cancellation fee this time bit next time they would. I get that I just wanted to reschedule and she kept saying that next time if this happens that they'd charge for cancelling so late because people are waiting. And I hung up.

So I can cross that dentist office off the list.

I just wanted to be as reasonable as I could and I wasn't. Now I have to calm down to drive home.

I'm sorry, askye. I agree today sucks. I cancelled my plans because I couldn't deal with getting dressed and looking presentable. I have a call in to my doctor, and I have food being delivered and I didn't even have to get on the phone to order it.

My doctor called me back and I have an appointment for Thursday when Mom is here to help with ltc. I have eaten and am watching The Book of Life and snuggling my baby.

sj sorry your day sucks too

but glad things are looking up.

I wrote a poem.

askye, do benzos work for you? If so, I'd call and ask for a scrip for a couple of Valium or Xanax. It's not uncommon. When I had to have a cyst taken out of my arm to be biopsied under a local in my doctor's office, they gave me a scrip for 2 Valium without blinking an eye.

I had to get a ride to and from the office, but it helped immensely with my needle phobia.

I take Klonopin every day, twice a day. And I forgot it this morning.

I had a plan. I had my stuffed owl, the paced breathing app, Hamilton soundtrack and I figured that woudl be good for an office visit.

But with waking up late and getting stressed about that and from the doctors appointment yesterday I just couldn't. However, decided to call them tomorrow and see if they will be willing to reschedule even though I hung up on them.

I wonder if there are any anxiety meds that are safe to take while breastfeeding.

I have people coming over in less than 2 hours. ltc is napping, and I need to make myself and the house semi presentable, but all I want to do is curl up in a ball in the corner and cry.

sj, I'm sorry. My OB/GYN assures me that Ativan (lorazepam) is safe to take while breastfeeding, which has saved my sanity on more than one occasion.

I know a lot of people don't put any stock in herbals, but in case anyone wants it, maybe try passionflower. It "works by increasing levels of a chemical called gamma aminobutyric acid (GABA) in the brain" which is the same thing Valium does. [source, UMD Med Ctr] It's not as strong as a prescription drug, obviously, but I find that two or three capsules of passionflower noticeably takes the edge off my anxiety. It's not expensive and it's available at health/natural food stores and on Amazon. I use Nature's Way. YMMV. IANAD.

ltc appears to be fine, but I'm the worst mother ever. I was using her old bassinet as a changing table and she launched herself over the side and onto the floor before I could stop her.