I'm sorry, askye. I agree today sucks. I cancelled my plans because I couldn't deal with getting dressed and looking presentable. I have a call in to my doctor, and I have food being delivered and I didn't even have to get on the phone to order it.
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My doctor called me back and I have an appointment for Thursday when Mom is here to help with ltc. I have eaten and am watching The Book of Life and snuggling my baby.
sj sorry your day sucks too
but glad things are looking up.
I wrote a poem.
askye, do benzos work for you? If so, I'd call and ask for a scrip for a couple of Valium or Xanax. It's not uncommon. When I had to have a cyst taken out of my arm to be biopsied under a local in my doctor's office, they gave me a scrip for 2 Valium without blinking an eye.
I had to get a ride to and from the office, but it helped immensely with my needle phobia.
I take Klonopin every day, twice a day. And I forgot it this morning.
I had a plan. I had my stuffed owl, the paced breathing app, Hamilton soundtrack and I figured that woudl be good for an office visit.
But with waking up late and getting stressed about that and from the doctors appointment yesterday I just couldn't. However, decided to call them tomorrow and see if they will be willing to reschedule even though I hung up on them.
I wonder if there are any anxiety meds that are safe to take while breastfeeding.
I have people coming over in less than 2 hours. ltc is napping, and I need to make myself and the house semi presentable, but all I want to do is curl up in a ball in the corner and cry.
sj, I'm sorry. My OB/GYN assures me that Ativan (lorazepam) is safe to take while breastfeeding, which has saved my sanity on more than one occasion.
I know a lot of people don't put any stock in herbals, but in case anyone wants it, maybe try passionflower. It "works by increasing levels of a chemical called gamma aminobutyric acid (GABA) in the brain" which is the same thing Valium does. [source, UMD Med Ctr] It's not as strong as a prescription drug, obviously, but I find that two or three capsules of passionflower noticeably takes the edge off my anxiety. It's not expensive and it's available at health/natural food stores and on Amazon. I use Nature's Way. YMMV. IANAD.
ltc appears to be fine, but I'm the worst mother ever. I was using her old bassinet as a changing table and she launched herself over the side and onto the floor before I could stop her.
sj, there is a 4 month old baby here at the beach, and 15 adults. He stuck his hand in the (soft rubber) blades of a tiny fan despite 15 sets of eyes on him. Babies are going to have mishaps. Please stop the self-loathing. You don't deserve it.