askye, do benzos work for you? If so, I'd call and ask for a scrip for a couple of Valium or Xanax. It's not uncommon. When I had to have a cyst taken out of my arm to be biopsied under a local in my doctor's office, they gave me a scrip for 2 Valium without blinking an eye.

I had to get a ride to and from the office, but it helped immensely with my needle phobia.

I take Klonopin every day, twice a day. And I forgot it this morning.

I had a plan. I had my stuffed owl, the paced breathing app, Hamilton soundtrack and I figured that woudl be good for an office visit.

But with waking up late and getting stressed about that and from the doctors appointment yesterday I just couldn't. However, decided to call them tomorrow and see if they will be willing to reschedule even though I hung up on them.

I wonder if there are any anxiety meds that are safe to take while breastfeeding.

I have people coming over in less than 2 hours. ltc is napping, and I need to make myself and the house semi presentable, but all I want to do is curl up in a ball in the corner and cry.

sj, I'm sorry. My OB/GYN assures me that Ativan (lorazepam) is safe to take while breastfeeding, which has saved my sanity on more than one occasion.

I know a lot of people don't put any stock in herbals, but in case anyone wants it, maybe try passionflower. It "works by increasing levels of a chemical called gamma aminobutyric acid (GABA) in the brain" which is the same thing Valium does. [source, UMD Med Ctr] It's not as strong as a prescription drug, obviously, but I find that two or three capsules of passionflower noticeably takes the edge off my anxiety. It's not expensive and it's available at health/natural food stores and on Amazon. I use Nature's Way. YMMV. IANAD.

ltc appears to be fine, but I'm the worst mother ever. I was using her old bassinet as a changing table and she launched herself over the side and onto the floor before I could stop her.

sj, there is a 4 month old baby here at the beach, and 15 adults. He stuck his hand in the (soft rubber) blades of a tiny fan despite 15 sets of eyes on him. Babies are going to have mishaps. Please stop the self-loathing. You don't deserve it.

I'm sorry. I know. That's one of the reasons I finally called my doctor. I'm just filled with self loathing at the moment.

I have such a stockpile of bad mom moments. Me standing next to K-Bug right as she dropped baby CJ on his head, on concrete, outside of Costco. Me not taking K-Bug's wrist injury seriously and telling her to ice it for weeks before we finally got it x-rayed and discovered she needed surgery, a bone graft, and a pin.

Both kids are fine, I have a few extra grey hairs (under the purple), and life goes on.

But yes, I'm glad you are talking with your doctor and working to care for yourself. She seems like such a happy baby, so you are doing so much right.

People keep trying to give me credit for her being a happy baby, but both me and TCG swear this is just the baby we inherited. She was always like this.