sj, I'm sorry. My OB/GYN assures me that Ativan (lorazepam) is safe to take while breastfeeding, which has saved my sanity on more than one occasion.
Two by two, hands of blue. Two by two, hands of blue.
River ,'Ariel'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
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juliana - Jul 13, 2016 5:47:19 am PDT #25402 of 30002
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Zenkitty - Jul 13, 2016 6:23:24 am PDT #25403 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
I know a lot of people don't put any stock in herbals, but in case anyone wants it, maybe try passionflower. It "works by increasing levels of a chemical called gamma aminobutyric acid (GABA) in the brain" which is the same thing Valium does. [source, UMD Med Ctr] It's not as strong as a prescription drug, obviously, but I find that two or three capsules of passionflower noticeably takes the edge off my anxiety. It's not expensive and it's available at health/natural food stores and on Amazon. I use Nature's Way. YMMV. IANAD.
sj - Jul 13, 2016 8:53:19 am PDT #25404 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
ltc appears to be fine, but I'm the worst mother ever. I was using her old bassinet as a changing table and she launched herself over the side and onto the floor before I could stop her.
Steph L. - Jul 13, 2016 8:59:06 am PDT #25405 of 30002
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine
sj, there is a 4 month old baby here at the beach, and 15 adults. He stuck his hand in the (soft rubber) blades of a tiny fan despite 15 sets of eyes on him. Babies are going to have mishaps. Please stop the self-loathing. You don't deserve it.
sj - Jul 13, 2016 9:27:33 am PDT #25406 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I'm sorry. I know. That's one of the reasons I finally called my doctor. I'm just filled with self loathing at the moment.
SuziQ - Jul 13, 2016 9:39:41 am PDT #25407 of 30002
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
I have such a stockpile of bad mom moments. Me standing next to K-Bug right as she dropped baby CJ on his head, on concrete, outside of Costco. Me not taking K-Bug's wrist injury seriously and telling her to ice it for weeks before we finally got it x-rayed and discovered she needed surgery, a bone graft, and a pin.
Both kids are fine, I have a few extra grey hairs (under the purple), and life goes on.
But yes, I'm glad you are talking with your doctor and working to care for yourself. She seems like such a happy baby, so you are doing so much right.
sj - Jul 13, 2016 9:41:13 am PDT #25408 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
People keep trying to give me credit for her being a happy baby, but both me and TCG swear this is just the baby we inherited. She was always like this.
lisah - Jul 13, 2016 9:44:43 am PDT #25409 of 30002
Punishingly Intricate
ugh, sj, I'm not a mom so I haven't had to deal with that particularly awful brand of self loathing but I have been in that brain space. It truly sucks and I'm glad you're going to talk to a doctor about it.
I'm sure every parent can tell a story about their kid doing something dangerous or being hurt while on their watch. A different flavor from your baby's mishap but my dad, an engaged and loving parent, liked to tell us about the time he was sitting in shorts reading the paper and my year-old brother toddled over and chomped on his knee. My dad reflexively kicked and sent my brother flying. Brother is 49 now and totally fine (except for being a Republican).
Laura - Jul 13, 2016 10:07:26 am PDT #25410 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
I have such a stockpile of bad mom moments
Seriously, we all do. We enjoy my mom regaling us with stories of her mishaps with us. Are you going to feel bad when you drop your kid on his/her head, sure! But we all do it. She and TCG know you are a great mom, and I hope someday soon you will get there. Also, don't beat yourself up about beating yourself up! We all suffer from bad parent paranoia. I think maybe it helps us be good parents.
sj - Jul 13, 2016 10:15:37 am PDT #25411 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
It's not just the bad mother feelings. I'm just filled with self loathing about every aspect of myself at the moment. I don't know where it is coming from or how to stop it.