Where's the praising and extolling of my virtues? Where's the love?

Host ,'Not Fade Away'


Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


JenP - Dec 04, 2020 9:01:21 am PST #627 of 29428

Got it. I've never done group therapy either.

I'm glad you had dream negative test results... or, negative Covid-19 anyway. Brains are weird. Sleeping brains are a whole other level of magnitude weird.

I ordered an artificial tree, since I'm not glomming on to family members for Christmas festivities this year. It is... smaller than I envisioned. I mean, I saw the height when I ordered it, but I should have gone bigger (I ordered 4.5'; I should've gotten at least 6'). I just didn't want to overwhelm the apartment. Or myself. Anyway, it's sitting on an Ikea Lack side table with a tree, uh, drape, I guess that goes to the ground, so it's cute. Definitely not overwhelming in any sense! Hey. live and learn. Now to find some ornaments. I have a few, but not enough for even just Christmas Tree Jr. over there.


brenda m - Dec 04, 2020 10:07:31 am PST #628 of 29428
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

Last night, I dreamed I had covid.

Last night I dreamed we had fleas, so...here's hoping we're both wrong. (We don't have fleas.)

sj I'm sorry about your uncle, and wishing ma for him and theo's residents and everyone.

Drew, it's obvious we're so far past what an already stunted X-mas season can help. I really, really hope there's genuine relief in the offing soon. Both small business and impacted employees need a solid plan, not a "best of luck" handwave. It's so terrible and I feel awful for everybody.

In happier news, I wrote and enveloped two holiday cards last night! Coming off a 48-hour work bender too, so hopefully whatever I wrote is coherent.


amyparker - Dec 04, 2020 10:19:27 am PST #629 of 29428
In the end it's only ever been one step, and then the next.

Yesterday after yoga my classmates were going on about how wonderful they were finding doing their practice at home, and could we keep this up when the pandemic was over?

I did not howl down the channel, but it was a near thing. I do not want to do yoga alone in my living room for the rest of my life! My therapist sent me to this studio as part of my social anxiety management: "Here is an hour a day out of your house where social interaction is fairly controlled."

With my people, I am very touchy. I miss inadvertently holding hands with my friend Nicole when the studio's crowded and we're doing twists on the floor, I miss walking arm-in-arm with my honorary Norwegian mom as I see her to her car, I miss Helen adjusting my stance while muttering "Your hip's playing up again, stop pushing". It hurts to be reminded of what I've given up, and hearing everyone on the call saying "Isn't it terrific?" No, it's a stopgap until we can be together again.


juliana - Dec 04, 2020 11:24:11 am PST #630 of 29428
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…

amyparker, I hear you. There are things that cannot be done remotely.


NoiseDesign - Dec 04, 2020 11:27:51 am PST #631 of 29428
Our wings are not tired

Sorry about the rant last night. I just hit points here I'm at the end of my tether.


sj - Dec 04, 2020 11:39:08 am PST #632 of 29428
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."

ND, don’t apologize for ranting here. I’m sorry things are so difficult right now.


Laura - Dec 04, 2020 11:50:47 am PST #633 of 29428
Our wings are not tired.

No apologies. It is amazing that you aren't screaming at the world and random strangers daily. This has all been too much. There is more hope than a month ago, but it surely ain't over yet.


NoiseDesign - Dec 04, 2020 11:58:00 am PST #634 of 29428
Our wings are not tired

Somehow I've made it to December, and I haven't had to let go of any of my full time employees, and they all still have healthcare, so we've been just getting through, but this has been insanity.


Shir - Dec 04, 2020 11:58:48 am PST #635 of 29428
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".

ND, if we need to start apologizing for ranting here... then hi, I've got a lot of apologizing to start doing.

It is amazing that you aren't screaming at the world and random strangers daily.

That.

Also, {{sj}}.

It's almost 22:00pm here and I managed to handle everything I needed to do today, and I'm trying to make my brain stop fussing about everything else that still needs to be done in general. I am not a fan of this feeling.

Edited to add:

Somehow I've made it to December, and I haven't had to let go of any of my full time employees, and they all still have healthcare, so we've been just getting through

That is an amazing list of accomplishments. I can't imagine what it has been like.


sj - Dec 04, 2020 11:59:14 am PST #636 of 29428
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."

ND, that is truly amazing.