Last night, I dreamed I had covid.

Last night I dreamed we had fleas, so...here's hoping we're both wrong. (We don't have fleas.)

sj I'm sorry about your uncle, and wishing ma for him and theo's residents and everyone.

Drew, it's obvious we're so far past what an already stunted X-mas season can help. I really, really hope there's genuine relief in the offing soon. Both small business and impacted employees need a solid plan, not a "best of luck" handwave. It's so terrible and I feel awful for everybody.

In happier news, I wrote and enveloped two holiday cards last night! Coming off a 48-hour work bender too, so hopefully whatever I wrote is coherent.

Yesterday after yoga my classmates were going on about how wonderful they were finding doing their practice at home, and could we keep this up when the pandemic was over?

I did not howl down the channel, but it was a near thing. I do not want to do yoga alone in my living room for the rest of my life! My therapist sent me to this studio as part of my social anxiety management: "Here is an hour a day out of your house where social interaction is fairly controlled."

With my people, I am very touchy. I miss inadvertently holding hands with my friend Nicole when the studio's crowded and we're doing twists on the floor, I miss walking arm-in-arm with my honorary Norwegian mom as I see her to her car, I miss Helen adjusting my stance while muttering "Your hip's playing up again, stop pushing". It hurts to be reminded of what I've given up, and hearing everyone on the call saying "Isn't it terrific?" No, it's a stopgap until we can be together again.

amyparker, I hear you. There are things that cannot be done remotely.

Sorry about the rant last night. I just hit points here I'm at the end of my tether.

ND, don’t apologize for ranting here. I’m sorry things are so difficult right now.

No apologies. It is amazing that you aren't screaming at the world and random strangers daily. This has all been too much. There is more hope than a month ago, but it surely ain't over yet.

Somehow I've made it to December, and I haven't had to let go of any of my full time employees, and they all still have healthcare, so we've been just getting through, but this has been insanity.

ND, if we need to start apologizing for ranting here... then hi, I've got a lot of apologizing to start doing.

It is amazing that you aren't screaming at the world and random strangers daily.

That.

Also, {{sj}}.

It's almost 22:00pm here and I managed to handle everything I needed to do today, and I'm trying to make my brain stop fussing about everything else that still needs to be done in general. I am not a fan of this feeling.

Edited to add:

Somehow I've made it to December, and I haven't had to let go of any of my full time employees, and they all still have healthcare, so we've been just getting through

That is an amazing list of accomplishments. I can't imagine what it has been like.

ND, that is truly amazing.

Wow, ND, that's incredible. Congratulations. Also, I barely thought that was a rant!