Husband and I got flu and covid shots. He passed out afterwards (which he's done with shots before, though not as an adult), so that was a fun few minutes. Paramedics came and checked his vitals, and he's fine. Conveniently, there was also a doctor there getting his shots, so we had him if needed.
Buffy: He ran away, right? Giles: Sort of, more. turned and swept out majestically, I suppose. Said I didn't concern him. Buffy: So a mythic triumph over a completely indifferent foe? Giles: Well, I'm not dead or unconscious, so I say bravo for me.
'Same Time, Same Place'
Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Dana - Sep 18, 2023 9:48:57 am PDT #25451 of 30000
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
sj - Sep 18, 2023 9:53:02 am PDT #25452 of 30000
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Another rough day at therapy trying to change the mindset about how people perceive me which I’ve had for at least 40 of my 46 years. I still have no idea how to do that no matter how many times it’s explained to me.
sj - Sep 18, 2023 9:53:42 am PDT #25453 of 30000
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Yikes, Dana. I’m glad he’s okay.
smonster - Sep 18, 2023 10:18:13 am PDT #25454 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
Ooof, sj, that’s a big task indeed.
Monday is going okay except that I, as always, am not getting through my work as fast as I’m supposed to. I think it’s perfectionism slowing me down, but I try and try and I just can’t seem to hit the timing.
Jessica - Sep 18, 2023 10:36:09 am PDT #25455 of 30000
If I want to become a cloud of bats, does each bat need a separate vaccination?
Yikes, Dana. I’m glad he’s okay.
What sj said!!
I picked up a bug at the RenFaire this weekend (not Covid!) and so am operating around 50% capacity, which seems about right for a cold rainy Monday. At some point today I will accept delivery and installation of a new washing machine, which I sincerely hope will not be a complete piece of garbage like the one it's replacing. (New Machine is a Maytag, which always makes me think of ita by the transitive properties of Colin, and which I think is probably good luck.)
We adopted a sweet pup yesterday (she's 11, but small, so I keep calling her a puppy)
PUPPY!
erikaj - Sep 18, 2023 10:39:54 am PDT #25456 of 30000
Always Anti-fascist!
Thanks for the wishes...I've had a little cake. Good for you on the puppy, Jen.
Steph L. - Sep 18, 2023 10:43:41 am PDT #25457 of 30000
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
Happy Birthday, erika!!!
JenP - Sep 18, 2023 10:45:39 am PDT #25458 of 30000
Oof, glad husband is OK, Dana.
sj, that's not easy work. Good on you for persisting.
smonster... well, same message as to sj, really.
Maytag, which always makes me think of ita by the transitive properties of Colin, and which I think is probably good luck
Yes.
DavidS - Sep 18, 2023 11:22:18 am PDT #25459 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Happy birthday, erika!
Got a surprise follow-up call from Nurse Eithne (our very Irish hospice nurse) this morning.
I was reminded that they offer grief counseling as part of their hospice service, and, indeed, my children and EM have urged me to see a therapist.
Which I will do at some point, though I'm unsure what they think I'm going to get out of it.
I'm not stuck or having difficulty processing it like my mother-in-law.
I'm not depressed like my daughter.
I'm sad. I'm grieving. But I'm also functional, and not indulging in self destructive behavior.
I've been through grief before. I've had a marriage end before. I know this emotional terrain, and I know what sustains me and helps me move forward.
Finding the vessel for Jacqueline's ashes and thinking about setting up her writing desk as a place for her feels loving and right.
I'm planning the funeral. I'm thinking about the memorial in the spring. I feel like I'm keeping her close in a healthy (not morbid) way but also letting her go.
I know what to do when I need to sit with it and cry and let it out. I have friends to talk to and I have reached out to them.
One thing I don't think they understand is that I've been processing this since her diagnosis. At every step her odds got worse, and I knew it was coming, though I focused on the chemotherapy and giving her hope.
But I spent many nights in January lying in bed crying, with tears running down my face and into my ears. Sobbing while sitting in front of my computer and writing about her. My heart breaking as I watched her body get whittled away by the cancer and the treatment.
I just felt so tender towards her at every physical indignity, washing her in the shower towards the end when she was so gaunt and wasted.
I love her and I loved tending to her.
I've had some times where I lost my shit, but nothing irreparable.
I've been grieving since December 20th of last year.
Don't mistake me - I understand the value of therapy. I just don't know what else they think I'm supposed to be doing. Or processing. Or seeing differently.
-t - Sep 18, 2023 11:36:12 am PDT #25460 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
It doesn't have to be about doing something else or differently. Just having someone to talk to /check in with who is outside of it and not in there with you just seems like a good idea.
I mean, not that I've done it and I really should have. So.