I'm sorry SJ.

And ltc won't have first hand memories but she'll be able to share your memories.

I'm very sorry for your loss, sj.

I'm sorry sj

So tomorrow I see the dentist.

I'm freaked out about what will happen. But I told them on the phone my issues, i have earbuds. I'll probably listen to Hamilton if I need to. I have therapy before.

Thankfully dentists don't take blood pressure. I went to the doctor today about my toe nail (verdict it looks fine, it hurts becuase the new nail is pushing the older part out, come back in two weeks) but my bp at the beginning was 143 over something. Sot hey checked it at the end and after breathing exercises it wa down to 137. They let me go.

I need to remember to take earbuds with me there because the waiting room is always noisy and then at one point I could hear the staff talking about the changes to their insurance plans and some stories about difficulties dealing with it and I'm pretty sure that's what I got things so bad.

But Wednesday I'm going to meet... I guess I can say a friend,. someone I met in group therapy... to do art at my therapists.

Today sucks. My alarm didn't go off I was late to therapy. Forgot to take my meds. Was going to finally see the dentist and just broke down

Called to cancel and explain. Asked to reschedule trying to be at least a little responsible and git a talk about how valuable their time is and they woildnt charge a cancellation fee this time bit next time they would. I get that I just wanted to reschedule and she kept saying that next time if this happens that they'd charge for cancelling so late because people are waiting. And I hung up.

So I can cross that dentist office off the list.

I just wanted to be as reasonable as I could and I wasn't. Now I have to calm down to drive home.

I'm sorry, askye. I agree today sucks. I cancelled my plans because I couldn't deal with getting dressed and looking presentable. I have a call in to my doctor, and I have food being delivered and I didn't even have to get on the phone to order it.

My doctor called me back and I have an appointment for Thursday when Mom is here to help with ltc. I have eaten and am watching The Book of Life and snuggling my baby.

sj sorry your day sucks too

but glad things are looking up.

I wrote a poem.

askye, do benzos work for you? If so, I'd call and ask for a scrip for a couple of Valium or Xanax. It's not uncommon. When I had to have a cyst taken out of my arm to be biopsied under a local in my doctor's office, they gave me a scrip for 2 Valium without blinking an eye.

I had to get a ride to and from the office, but it helped immensely with my needle phobia.

I take Klonopin every day, twice a day. And I forgot it this morning.

I had a plan. I had my stuffed owl, the paced breathing app, Hamilton soundtrack and I figured that woudl be good for an office visit.

But with waking up late and getting stressed about that and from the doctors appointment yesterday I just couldn't. However, decided to call them tomorrow and see if they will be willing to reschedule even though I hung up on them.