Ginger, a belated "go team stubborn"
Strix, love and support.
I walk. I talk. I shop, I sneeze. I'm gonna be a fireman when the floods roll back. There's trees in the desert since you moved out. And I don't sleep on a bed of bones.
Buffy ,'Chosen'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Typo Boy - Mar 18, 2013 9:51:01 pm PDT #27612 of 30001
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
JZ - Mar 18, 2013 10:35:40 pm PDT #27613 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
Strix, so much love and support and healing. And seconding Maria's advice about who to check in with for personal experiences and perspectives. And just so many vibes. It must have been so incredibly painful for you -- but, also, I'm in awe of the bond you and your friends share. From everything you've said over the years about your girlfriends, it's always been clear just how ferociously loyal and loving and protective all of you are toward each other, and how deeply you're all aware of just how rare and vital that bond is. I'm not surprised they stepped up to do this along with your DH. Deep, strong, steady vibes to all of you.
amych - Mar 19, 2013 3:45:48 am PDT #27614 of 30001
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?
Strix, hon, all the love and support to you; you have my digits in case you need, I think?
WindSparrow - Mar 19, 2013 4:09:57 am PDT #27615 of 30001
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Strix, love and support vibes to you. Depression is a dragon we have to slay every day. At some point in the future it may stay dead, but there is no guarantee of that for any of us. And now I've got Angel's voice earworming me - "Oh come on, I'm holding your head!"
sj - Mar 19, 2013 5:56:39 am PDT #27616 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Hugs thread
askye - Mar 19, 2013 5:56:52 am PDT #27617 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
Strix, I'm so sorry you are going through this. OF course we respect you and love you. You're not a bad person AT ALL. You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened. And you are actively looking for help and assistance and admitting the problem which is huge and scary. But you are doing it and we are here to support you.
My previous therapist did CBT and I didn't see her long (she moved) but I liked the way she worked and she helped me break one habit tied to my low self esteem.
As for online support - there's a website called Psych Central and they have lots of information but also forums [link] for about everything you can think of. I've been frequenting the bipolar disorder forum and finding some insight and support there.
Fred Pete - Mar 19, 2013 6:04:37 am PDT #27618 of 30001
Ann, that's a ferret.
All support, Strix. Sometimes depression is a matter of forcing one foot ahead at a time. I hope you find strategies to manage it. (One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.)
Laura - Mar 19, 2013 6:24:22 am PDT #27619 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened.
This!
One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.
Come visit sunny Pompano Beach! (hey, a girl can wish)
Much love to you, Strix. And much love to the others in this thread. Joining sj in a group hug.
Steph L. - Mar 19, 2013 6:27:41 am PDT #27620 of 30001
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Erin, darling, nothing but love here. You have issues -- depression and insomnia -- that are often best managed with meds. So you did what countless people do, and managed them with meds. Nothing wrong there. Addiction fucks normal things up, though, and I hate that it's fucking with you.
Dealing with it won't be a breeze, but you are tough and smart and strong AND you have an amazing support system, including us. So when you don't *feel* tough and smart and strong, we can help you find it again.
You can do this. We'll help you as much as you want us to.
DavidS - Mar 19, 2013 6:31:22 am PDT #27621 of 30001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Awww, you know we've got your back, Strix.
I think Scrappy did Cognitive therapy which may in fact have been how she got so very Wise.