Strix, I'm so sorry you are going through this. OF course we respect you and love you. You're not a bad person AT ALL. You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened. And you are actively looking for help and assistance and admitting the problem which is huge and scary. But you are doing it and we are here to support you.

My previous therapist did CBT and I didn't see her long (she moved) but I liked the way she worked and she helped me break one habit tied to my low self esteem.

As for online support - there's a website called Psych Central and they have lots of information but also forums [link] for about everything you can think of. I've been frequenting the bipolar disorder forum and finding some insight and support there.

All support, Strix. Sometimes depression is a matter of forcing one foot ahead at a time. I hope you find strategies to manage it. (One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.)

You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened.

This!

One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.

Come visit sunny Pompano Beach! (hey, a girl can wish)

Much love to you, Strix. And much love to the others in this thread. Joining sj in a group hug.

Erin, darling, nothing but love here. You have issues -- depression and insomnia -- that are often best managed with meds. So you did what countless people do, and managed them with meds. Nothing wrong there. Addiction fucks normal things up, though, and I hate that it's fucking with you.

Dealing with it won't be a breeze, but you are tough and smart and strong AND you have an amazing support system, including us. So when you don't *feel* tough and smart and strong, we can help you find it again.

You can do this. We'll help you as much as you want us to.

Awww, you know we've got your back, Strix.

I think Scrappy did Cognitive therapy which may in fact have been how she got so very Wise.

Strix, no judgment here (literally for me and figuratively for the board) We love and respect you, and we just want you to be the best that you can be. We're here for support and encouragement, and help if we can.

Nothing but support, and courage and strength to Strix.

And all kinds of support to Ginger's bones and your stubborn. That's some admirable.

Ginger, nothing but good thoughts for you. I'm glad the test results are as good as can be expected. Stubborn has nothing on Bitches.

I'm feeling nauseated again and am trying to figure out if eating something will make it better or worse.

Strix, no judgment here. Just as much love and support as I can send. Please feel free to call if you need or want to.

So glad to hear good news, Ginger. Here's to your continued stubbornness.