I've been in contact with smonster, but I will hit up VW.
Sigh...I reconciled myself to be a lifelong chronic depressive and insomniac, but I never thought my dr.prescribed meds would lead to addition.
I am a muddle of feeling right now, and they are all not-so-great feelings. How did I end up here?
Y'all are the best. THE BEST.
I see a weak ray of hope, now...
Strix - my best to you . Wish you the best and glad that you do have friends ( and family ) in meatspace that care.
Strix, I'm doing CBT right now, but it hasn't really been long enough for me to be much help to you. Still, if you need anything my profile address is available. No judging. I'm glad you have people around you who care and support you.
Hugs, strix. Nothing to add to what everyone else said, but love and support.
Don't focus on how you ended up here at the moment. Focus on the fact that you're willing to get help. Change doesn't happen overnight, and sometimes we fail. What matters is that we pick ourselves back up and try again.
I will try very hard. I just want to have some verve again, and I am willing to do the work.
The hardest part (so far) was facing my DH and friends tonight.