Strix, love and support vibes to you. Depression is a dragon we have to slay every day. At some point in the future it may stay dead, but there is no guarantee of that for any of us. And now I've got Angel's voice earworming me - "Oh come on, I'm holding your head!"
Stop means no. And no means no. So . . . stop.
Xander ,'Conversations with Dead People'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
WindSparrow - Mar 19, 2013 4:09:57 am PDT #27615 of 30001
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
sj - Mar 19, 2013 5:56:39 am PDT #27616 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Hugs thread
askye - Mar 19, 2013 5:56:52 am PDT #27617 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
Strix, I'm so sorry you are going through this. OF course we respect you and love you. You're not a bad person AT ALL. You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened. And you are actively looking for help and assistance and admitting the problem which is huge and scary. But you are doing it and we are here to support you.
My previous therapist did CBT and I didn't see her long (she moved) but I liked the way she worked and she helped me break one habit tied to my low self esteem.
As for online support - there's a website called Psych Central and they have lots of information but also forums [link] for about everything you can think of. I've been frequenting the bipolar disorder forum and finding some insight and support there.
Fred Pete - Mar 19, 2013 6:04:37 am PDT #27618 of 30001
Ann, that's a ferret.
All support, Strix. Sometimes depression is a matter of forcing one foot ahead at a time. I hope you find strategies to manage it. (One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.)
Laura - Mar 19, 2013 6:24:22 am PDT #27619 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
You are kind and funny and generous and brave and a good person but you have two severe chronic conditions and in trying to deal with them this happened.
This!
One of my favorites, which may or may not help you, is daylight. As much daylight, preferably sunlight, as possible.
Come visit sunny Pompano Beach! (hey, a girl can wish)
Much love to you, Strix. And much love to the others in this thread. Joining sj in a group hug.
Steph L. - Mar 19, 2013 6:27:41 am PDT #27620 of 30001
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Erin, darling, nothing but love here. You have issues -- depression and insomnia -- that are often best managed with meds. So you did what countless people do, and managed them with meds. Nothing wrong there. Addiction fucks normal things up, though, and I hate that it's fucking with you.
Dealing with it won't be a breeze, but you are tough and smart and strong AND you have an amazing support system, including us. So when you don't *feel* tough and smart and strong, we can help you find it again.
You can do this. We'll help you as much as you want us to.
DavidS - Mar 19, 2013 6:31:22 am PDT #27621 of 30001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Awww, you know we've got your back, Strix.
I think Scrappy did Cognitive therapy which may in fact have been how she got so very Wise.
Vortex - Mar 19, 2013 6:46:57 am PDT #27622 of 30001
"Cry havoc and let slip the boobs of war!" -- Miracleman
Strix, no judgment here (literally for me and figuratively for the board) We love and respect you, and we just want you to be the best that you can be. We're here for support and encouragement, and help if we can.
Beverly - Mar 19, 2013 6:49:41 am PDT #27623 of 30001
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
Nothing but support, and courage and strength to Strix.
And all kinds of support to Ginger's bones and your stubborn. That's some admirable.
Maria - Mar 19, 2013 6:58:04 am PDT #27624 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Ginger, nothing but good thoughts for you. I'm glad the test results are as good as can be expected. Stubborn has nothing on Bitches.