I mean, we've only been dating two months, and he just got out of a four-year relationship like, six months ago, and I've been trying to be patient and not push and give him his space (which he recognizes) but it just isn't fun to feel like I could be rejected at any moment. I can't grok being all logical and rational about whether you like someone and want to be with them. I have a hard time imagining him just waking up one day and thinking, you know what? I'm ready to actually be in a relationship with that smonster chick.
After just getting out of a long-term relationship, I'd be very gun-shy of committing to a new one.
Not to say I wouldn't happily date and date monogamously, but making future plans or being with someone who was expressly looking for cohabitation or marriage or kids or planning a trip together to the jungle next summer? I can see pulling back.
Not that rebounds can't end up being real long-term things but, at the beginning, it's a lot to ask.
I have a hard time imagining him just waking up one day and thinking, you know what? I'm ready to actually be in a relationship with that smonster chick.
He's at a demanding part of his career and is dealing with the end of a long-term relationship, I can actually see - after a bit of time - him waking up happily with you and thinking exactly this.
You give your heart so openly. I am really sorry you are hurting now.