Hey there everyone. Thanks again for the ~ma and for the inside info on the UC system. I know that things take forever and I also know that when an offer (hopefully) gets extended then it has to go to yet another group to talk about salary. The search committee has nothing to do with the placement level or the salary.

I do have some inside info since the head of the program and the head of the search committee is my old mentor. He's the one who pushed me to apply. Hopefully he can at least let me know on some kind of unofficial level that the offer is coming my way. I head off to USITT next week, which is the big technical theatre conference each year. I'll be spending most of the week with my old mentor along with the heads of the big programs around the country (most of which wrote recommendations for me for the UCI job) and it's just going to be crazy making to have no idea where things are with the potential job in this atmosphere.

Sigh. The joys of universities.

Sorry about my freakout last night, guys. The new medication I'm on is technically for treating hypertension, so when I felt dizzy I kind of panicked.

The doctor did finally call. At midnight. I was totally out. I'm gonna try to get ahold of my regular doctor today and chat with her about it and ask what I should do if it happens again. I won't be on this medication for long (we think about another month), so I don't need to worry about it long-term.

You should talk to SA. Her brain's still filled to the brim with feminist studies.

From ages ago, and probably no longer useful, but Nora, I'd be happy to talk to you about gender studies and gender inequality any time you like. My brain is indeed brimming.

Hey vw. I hope the sleep helped. It does sound like a medication reaction. Talking to your regular doctor is the best plan.

{{Ginger}} ~ma for your ma.

Poor Cashmere. Bobby was a climber, and a stacker and climber. Scary.

Working at home today. Too much to do everywhere.

20lbs of fearlessness

Oh, Olivia! Cut that out. Cashmere, it cracks me up that you and dh are having anticipatory kerfuffles over ERs.

The doctor did finally call. At midnight. I was totally out. I'm gonna try to get ahold of my regular doctor today and chat with her about it and ask what I should do if it happens again. I won't be on this medication for long (we think about another month), so I don't need to worry about it long-term.

Oh, good. Maybe your dosage is too high, and it can be reduced or something. Is the med a Beta blocker? I've recently read where they've been used to treat anxiety.

Maybe your dosage is too high, and it can be reduced or something.

I'm on the lowest dosage, so I'm not sure.

Is the med a Beta blocker?

I don't think so. It's clonidine. All I know is it's usually used to treat hypertension, but they've found it useful with reducing/eliminating nightmares and flashbacks, which is why I'm on it.

I think the Beta blockers all end in -olol. I'm always intrigued by how they develop a medicine for one purpose and then find it has all these other cool uses they didn't even think of when developing it.

I hope you and your doctor get it all worked out, today. Being dizzy freaks me out.

I go back to the doctor today, in search of the SSRI that works for me. He'd wanted to put me on Paxil, but I'm wary of it for a few reasons, so he proposed Zoloft. This was all when I was still physically sick, so I asked to just put it on hold 'til I felt better, so I'd be able to discern illness from SSRI side effects. He told me to look stuff up and see what I thought, in the interim.

I think I've narrowed it down to either the Zoloft or a half dose of Celexa. I would never consider going back to the Celexa, except that my first day off of it, I felt better than I have in ages (before or since). I wasn't euphoric, but nearly so. I'm wondering if I felt so good because I had just enough left in me.

Zoloft is a really good option, Cindy. Good luck today!

I've never had a relationship like this before, where I *knew*, with total assuredness, that I could count on him. And I've never had a relationship where my love wasn't treated like (to some degree) an inconvenience.

Teppy is me. OMG! We're very pretty.

From ages ago, and probably no longer useful, but Nora, I'd be happy to talk to you about gender studies and gender inequality any time you like. My brain is indeed brimming.

Always useful because I'm always thinking about this stuff too. You may hear from me in email once I get going on my next essay AND annotated bibliography! I did figure out a question to ask myself and answer, based on the sources I need to cite in the answering essay. Hopefully it will hold up once the writing begins...

Oh, nice doctor boy just called again and apologized profusely for not getting to me sooner last night. He thinks it was probably vertigo and not related to the clonidine. I'm just supposed to watch myself for the next few days.