Nobody has to beat themselves up for being blind here - it takes a certain amount of charm to be a successful creep, and we wouldn't be a loving family of internet weirdos if we didn't instinctively sympathize with self-deprecating social awkwardness.

I appreciate everyone who's said this, but I'm still angry with myself (with him too, obviously), and that's going to take a while to settle. I don't process stuff very quickly. Or even at a moderate pace.

I appreciate everyone who's said this, but I'm still angry with myself (with him too, obviously), and that's going to take a while to settle. I don't process stuff very quickly. Or even at a moderate pace.

Same! It's like we're brain twins today, I guess. And, you know, I have no real creepdar if I'm not being creeped on and occasionally if I'm being creeped on unless it's really intrusive. So I feel bad about that.

Also, in Other Online Spaces people are being WRONG ON THE INTERNET about this in ways that I was and I see other people clearly from here weighing in so, you know, thanks, whichever Nonnie you are on meme.

Both here and in some other spaces I've seen them in the past couple of days, his apologies are like a master class in hitting every single "How to sincerely apologize 101" trope without an ounce of actual sincerity. They are so carefully crafted to not be a nonpology of the type that gets called out. I'm finding them creepy as hell.

I'm still catching up after being mostly offline this weekend.

I do not wish to see him here ever again. For those that were driven away--I'm sorry I didn't ping to what he was doing, and I hope you'll make your way back at some point.

I'll be voting to make sure we make the quorum. I'm also OK with not passing go, and going straight to a ban.

Nobody has to beat themselves up for being blind here - it takes a certain amount of charm to be a successful creep, and we wouldn't be a loving family of internet weirdos if we didn't instinctively sympathize with self-deprecating social awkwardness.

I'm still processing that what was obvious to quite a few of our group (in particular the men), was really a complete surprise to me. For me that means examining the way I justify and excuse behavior where maybe I should pay more attention.

Bureaucratic note: Our rules call for four days of discussion followed by three days of voting. So voting would start Wednesday evening and go through Saturday evening.

Also, we'll need a vote counter. I think Nilly's done it the past few times, but I'm happy to take on that task if she's not around.

Thanks for the clarification, Jon. I couldn't remember.

I think we've had a couple of volunteers to vote-count, but will we have an admin available to set up the poll?

I think msbelle made a good point about us and the board having evolved, and definitely the cultural conversation around these things has changed. I know that my feminist rage is possibly at an all time high, given all the shenanigans this elections has brought out on the right and the left.

Count me among "thought he was creepy and didn't like him but thought everyone else did so Imma be nice." Even down to hanging out with him while he was in NOLA a couple years ago.

I think also that being an anxious person, it's hard for me to trust myself because sometimes I lie. Like I was convinced that my day at work was going to suck and it's been fine. Hindsight and all that.

But once you see the pattern, you can't unsee it. Seeing a bunch of his non-pologies in quick succession, and knowing nothing ever changed, is truly horrifying.

I went back and reread the posts about this issue here, to get more of an "all at once" sense of things. And I'm left feeling angry: angry that several of us were directly hurt by SP's actions, angry that many of us were driven away from the board both by his actions and the fall out, and angry that 10 years of bad-faith community participation on his part have left so many of us second-guessing our own perceptions and decision making.

The internalized misogyny question is really going to haunt me. I thought for a long time that Sunil was manipulative in the social- and professional-climbing sense, but the reason I never spoke up about his behavior was because I was convinced I was just being a bitch to assume that he would use people that way.