I’m actually sick. Barely kept breakfast down.

I’m just keeping my door closed at work and letting f bombs fly, because seriously? Fuck white people. Fuck fuck fuck them!

I think things may need to crash and burn as fast as possible to have any hope of getting things back at midterms. Like full crazy cakes fascism from him.

Sadly, I don't think even full crazy cakes fascism would stop some people. He's going to have to crash the economy (which really, heavy tariffs might do) before some people will turn on him.

I wonder if there's anything Biden and company can do between now and the inauguration to put up some guardrails. Not that it will matter, probably, since the assholes are happy to break any law.

I don't think it's ALL that we are. But certainly a dark and constant thread. No government would allow me to immigrate because I need benefits. Sure glad I did all that work trying to prove that voting works. Really thinking about quitting that, because it doesn't. not the way we do it anyway. Really feel like my life, never the most happening thing ever, is all but over now.

Probably by the time we would have had the midterms, PDA will not exist anyway. an instructive 15 years....

I wonder if there's anything Biden and company can do between now and the inauguration to put up some guardrails.

It's time for Biden to test the limits of the ruling that something isn't illegal if POTUS does it.

I’m actually sick. Barely kept breakfast down.

My therapist warned me she might have to run for the bathroom to barf, because she had been barfing all morning.

At vet. $1012 in tests. Dog is as sick as the rest of us.

I've worked so hard and sacrificed so much to support this stupid fucking election.

I have the Stardew Valley 1.6 update on consoles, my niece's 16th birthday party this weekend, and LEGO sets to put together. One foot in front of the other, I guess?

I feel ya, shrift. I have writing stuff I guess, but the computer is trying to go out, too, and nobody wanted that stuff before--they aren't gonna want it now, maybe it's time to accept that I won't get a book out, either. even if I've visualized my name on the J shelf since I was eight. Stupid kid stuff. Like believing in fairness and democracy.

Well,

of fucking COURSE this country is a bunch of Christofascist misogynist transphobic homophobic racist science-denying bigots.

may be the most delightfully phrased descriptor since "lying hypocritical sexist egotistical bigot."

I love you all and am grateful for this bastion of sanity, which is odd because of course we all ganged together because of a shared kind of insanity called fandom. I'm numb, on the edge of sick, but holding onto the self-protective numbness just a bit longer. Disappointed in my fellow citizens, but really not surprised. And not actually admitting how scared I am for people I love--and some I don't even know. Meds on board. I may nap.