I feel ya, shrift. I have writing stuff I guess, but the computer is trying to go out, too, and nobody wanted that stuff before--they aren't gonna want it now, maybe it's time to accept that I won't get a book out, either. even if I've visualized my name on the J shelf since I was eight. Stupid kid stuff. Like believing in fairness and democracy.

Well,

of fucking COURSE this country is a bunch of Christofascist misogynist transphobic homophobic racist science-denying bigots.

may be the most delightfully phrased descriptor since "lying hypocritical sexist egotistical bigot."

I love you all and am grateful for this bastion of sanity, which is odd because of course we all ganged together because of a shared kind of insanity called fandom. I'm numb, on the edge of sick, but holding onto the self-protective numbness just a bit longer. Disappointed in my fellow citizens, but really not surprised. And not actually admitting how scared I am for people I love--and some I don't even know. Meds on board. I may nap.

I have spent the afternoon driving around aimlessly while listening to angry music in order to avoid my in-laws who pick up ltc on Wednesdays.

One foot in front of the other, I guess?

This, friends. You - all of you - will understand how to cope and live through this. You got this. It's not gonna be easy or pretty, but you got this. Because this is what people do. We live through tough and dark times and we help one another. I know it from history, I know it from the past two years of my life. You know it from your own history of civil disobedience.

You'll learn what to do. You'll adapt. You'll make mistakes, you'll have small wins. You'll build community and new ties (start today!). You got this. I have faith in you.

It just occurred to me - the people who are going to be screwed over by this most immediately are the Ukrainians.

One of the things Biden could be doing is shipping as much materiel over there, as fast as he can.

And if Congress complains, well, "sending military aid to an ally that's under attack" sounds like Official Presidential Business to me.

Unrelated (maybe) to election news - the manager that brought in bagels this morning just resigned. She bcc'd us all on her resignation email and she was SCATHING about company leadership. Always liked her.

Eta: yeah, my dad brought up Ukraine over breakfast and we were all just, you know, bleak about it. I do keep forgetting that Biden is still President for a couple of months and can do stuff. I hope NATO can step up somehow

I'm just dazed and numb and trying to put one foot in front of the other. Dog has pancreatitis, no surprise. Change to low fat diet and take a bunch of drugs, probiotics, etc. That was some distraction. Deleted most of my emails because I am on way too many news mailing lists. I did follow the link for Jon Stewart's message, and sobbed. So much for distraction.

It is all too much and I am so grateful to be here to mourn together. I get and know all the stuff about coping and grieving mechanisms, but right now I just want to not people at all.

I have to go see my brother at some point, because he is dying, but he has a huge banner on the front of his house that I just can't deal with right now. I know he is going to be in and out of the hospital and right now I think I will wait to visit him there instead.

In addition to everything else, I'm so pissed off about the Ohio results -- Sherrod Brown lost his seat, and people voted to keep gerrymandering (in a ballot issue that was deliberately worded in a really confusing way.)

Hil, I am pissed right along with you. The way Issue 1 was worded was so ridiculous. And I hate so much that Sherrod Brown lost his seat. I was glad the 2 tax renewal levies passed, though.

And Greg Landsman got reelected, so at least that's something. Though, considering Issue 1, who knows if that seat will even exist after the next redistricting.