Fuck, fuck, fuck.

I have incredible privilege in that I can immigrate to the UK thanks to Mr. Loomycakes, my job is remote, and my company has UK offices. I don't want to totally upheave our life. But I honestly don't know if I can stay here.

I'm at work, which is actually keeping me from falling into a spiral, but at some point I'm going to have to work through my emotions, which is not something I'm good at.

This is so me. I'm like a camel with emotions which is not good for me I know but keeps me somewhat functional

Salted caramel through a straw sounds delightful

I'm in the office and absolutely no one is coming anywhere close to talking about politics, which I appreciate. Yesterday I heard someone talking on the phone (she sits pretty far away from me but it's just a big open space and her voice carries, I feel like I hear all her calls very clearly and wonder if she knows that) and in between the marketing stuff she said something about how every other place she worked there was a lot of "hey, remember to vote" talk on election day but here there was nothing and that is a trifle odd but we are all just flinchy and avoidant, I think. OTOH, one of our managers brought in bagels for our department this morning and one of my coworkers is making salad for lunch for everyone, so our little team is quietly mutually supportive through food which is nice.

That is nice, -t.

I snapped at one client who is a real nerve worker already today but my program manager has my back.

I can’t even think about future or consequences or who might do what, right now. I just can’t.

But much as the UK has their own issues, I am v jealous, Atropa.

I don’t know what time I fell asleep last night, but I was pretty sure it was over when I did. I woke up at 6 and saw it confirmed. I think TCG was more shocked than me because somehow he still expects people to do the right thing. I’m feeling pretty numb right now, but I’m going to go out and do something if only to avoid my in-laws this afternoon.

I don't think the Dems will take the House either.

There's a huge rightward shift in Pennsylvania. Even solid bastions like NY and VA moved right by about 5 points. California wasn't able to flip the Republican seats that they'd lost in the last election.

I know Trump will want to make an example of San Francisco and send in his ICE agents in January. That will play well with his base.

Worried about Matilda's boyfriend who was born in Nicaragua but moved here when he was 4.

It feels clear to me that Trump's (and Vance's) incessant misogyny was a big selling point. In fact, it is the point. Dominating and controlling and demeaning women is their agenda, and it has a lot of supporters.

I can't believe 23% of Black men voted for Trump. So apparently they forgot about Charlottesville, and Trump condoning White Supremacy groups? That Trump will have no checks on police brutality and black men will be killed with impunity?

And Latino men who feel secure in this country even though Trump is threatening mass deportations and referred to Puerto Rico as garbage.

I was telling someone this morning that after the 2016 election I looked at photographs of lynchings. The ones where the dead body is hanging from the tree and all the white faces are smiling and having a party, and they brought their kids along. And I just thought, "These people haven't changed. That's who Americans are."

I've spent the last decade thinking hard about this country's racist history, but I have apparently underestimated the misogyny.

I know as a white male and living in CA I'm in a relatively safe area, but I'm also atheist and queer, which are not welcome.

I don't want my country to be like this, but it is.

I don't want to run away, but I'm going to make sure my Canadian citizenship is in order so that there is some sort of emergency exit path.

I'm just sick.

I’m actually sick. Barely kept breakfast down.

I’m just keeping my door closed at work and letting f bombs fly, because seriously? Fuck white people. Fuck fuck fuck them!

I think things may need to crash and burn as fast as possible to have any hope of getting things back at midterms. Like full crazy cakes fascism from him.

Sadly, I don't think even full crazy cakes fascism would stop some people. He's going to have to crash the economy (which really, heavy tariffs might do) before some people will turn on him.

I wonder if there's anything Biden and company can do between now and the inauguration to put up some guardrails. Not that it will matter, probably, since the assholes are happy to break any law.