Can't even shout, Can't even cry. The Gentlemen are coming by. Looking in windows, knocking on doors. They need to take seven, and they might take yours. Can't call to mom, can't say a word. You're gonna die screaming but you won't be heard.

Dream Girl ,'Bring On The Night'


Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


Scrappy - Aug 22, 2021 12:00:09 pm PDT #8632 of 30000
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

Thinking of you, Teppy, and hoping for the best possible outcome.


Gudanov - Aug 22, 2021 12:03:08 pm PDT #8633 of 30000
Coding and Sleeping

My elder daughter is married and moved out now. Unfortunately, after the last event I let on that I was overstimulated and not feeling well which seems to have made my wife angry with me. Now I feel like I've ruined everything. It's so stupid because I KNOW not to let on about how I feel and I screwed up anyways. I hate myself so much. I just need to get with it and hide any down or negative feelings and not ruin anything else. Aside from my stupidity, everything went smooth and I'm very proud of her. Her husband is a good guy and they seem very happy together in their little apartment. Like me, she is on the spectrum and charge is hard for her, but so far she seems to be doing very well. It will take some getting used to. Seeing her cleared out room is still a bit of a shock every time I go by.


Gudanov - Aug 22, 2021 12:04:12 pm PDT #8634 of 30000
Coding and Sleeping

Best wishes, Steph. It sounds like such an overwhelming and difficult situation. Don't forget to take at least a little time for self-care.


-t - Aug 22, 2021 12:11:19 pm PDT #8635 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

Congrats on your daughter’s wedding, Gud! Best wishes to her and her husband

I just need to get with it and hide any down or negative feelings

Uh, that doesn’t sound like a good idea


DavidS - Aug 22, 2021 12:18:19 pm PDT #8636 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

I just need to get with it and hide any down or negative feelings
Uh, that doesn’t sound like a good idea

Yeah, how about divorcing your psycho and abusive wife now that your kids are moving out?


Laura - Aug 22, 2021 12:22:01 pm PDT #8637 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.

Sending much resolution ~ma to house of Teppy's dad.

Gud, loved ones aren't supposed to get angry with you when you aren't feeling well. Period. You aren't stupid. People who get angry at you for being overwhelmed are heartless.


aurelia - Aug 22, 2021 1:42:54 pm PDT #8638 of 30000
All sorrows can be borne if you put them into a story. Tell me a story.

Gud, you are human and it is expected that you would both have and express feelings. If your wife wants a robot she should get on that.


Tom Scola - Aug 22, 2021 6:02:44 pm PDT #8639 of 30000
Mr. Scola’s wardrobe by Botany 500

I hope things are OK with the Steph family.

I’ve been kind of struggling lately. I think that during the lockdown this past year, I withdrew too much, and now it’s been too difficult for me to get back out in the world. It’s like my normal state of social anxiety has been amplified, and I’m afraid to get out of my apartment and do stuff.

I’ve also been frustrated with my photography lately; it feels like I’ve been stuck in a rut. I’ve plateaued, and also I don’t know write and talk about my photography in a meaningful way, which helps to feed my impostor syndrome.

But hey, here’s a photography class that’s right in my strike zone. Open to photographers of all experience levels. But it’s $840. But it could be exactly what I need to take my photography to the next level. But it could be useless to me, and just tell me stuff I already instinctively know. But spending all that money could be just the motivation I need to force myself to get out of the fucking and be social. But much like therapy, I’m only going to get any benefit out of it if I’m willing to put in the effort, which I’m not really good at doing with my therapy. But also, I’m just scared of human interaction.

I need to sleep on this.


dcp - Aug 22, 2021 6:38:13 pm PDT #8640 of 30000
The more I learn, the more I realize how little I know.

I’m just scared of human interaction.

Yeah.

In three weeks, I start working in the office again, with other people around me. Don't wanna.


meara - Aug 22, 2021 7:02:19 pm PDT #8641 of 30000

Hope all went well Teppy!!

I was on a boat all day and although it was cloudy and I wore sunscreen I think I got sunburnt on my face! (I was wearing long sleeves, so nowhere else hopefully)