I'm just waiting to see if I pass out. Long story.

Mal ,'Heart Of Gold'


Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


JZ - Apr 18, 2023 4:37:55 pm PDT #21761 of 30000
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.

She's a she, a nurse, and claims to be a good and loving one who advocates like hell for her patients. I told her this was untrue, she's a bad nurse, and she reminds me of the nurse who pushed me to suicidal thoughts years ago (I outlived her, by God I did).


erikaj - Apr 18, 2023 4:44:38 pm PDT #21762 of 30000
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)

I could still kick her ass, not as thoroughly as my fake husband/ AU! real dad(I know what my mom likes, after a fashion...it could've, but it didn't, but much like Oz "it would explain a lot...") But I did promise him I'd #MowTheInternet and she sounds like just the right piece of crabgrass to start with. ETA: there is also a reason "meaning well is no excuse" is a slogan in the disability community. some of the worst people I've ever met are women in the "helping professions".


Sheryl - Apr 18, 2023 4:47:02 pm PDT #21763 of 30000
Fandom means never having to say "But where would I wear that?"

Timelies all!

Sorry you encountered that infuriating asshole, JZ.


JZ - Apr 18, 2023 5:08:05 pm PDT #21764 of 30000
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.

I feel dumb for going so very nuclear, but I didn't even know it was a trigger until now. Being at his deathbed was a life-defining event, and someone flat-out telling me I'm lying about it just caused the entire universe to white out. All I wanted was to cause her pain.

Anyhow, she's blocked now, so even if I do go back she can't get at me. I just don't get it. Buffista nurses are the best; how are so many other nurses managing to be the very worst?

some of the worst people I've ever met are women in the "helping professions".

Ugh. That's discouraging.


Calli - Apr 18, 2023 5:32:14 pm PDT #21765 of 30000
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs

Well that sucks, JZ. Who comes at people about discussing their parents’ deaths? What a jerk.

I got the news today that my cat Leifur had kidney disease. He’s 17 and the likely prognosis is 2-3 years, which would kinda take him to the expected lifespan of a mostly indoor cat anyway, but it still has me a little down. He seems comfortable and interested in things for now, which is good to see.

In other news, I’m watching a Columbo episode and having the unusual experience of watching Leonard Nimoy being thoroughly villainous. That’s rather fun.


erikaj - Apr 18, 2023 5:53:13 pm PDT #21766 of 30000
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)

The lie that gets to me is when people, like, con their kids into explaining why taxes aren't fair, or some bollocks like that.(I mostly don't comment, though, but I could hurt my eyes when they roll like that.) I hope people don't full-on *lie* about deathbed things... things might *feel* some kind of way without the depiction being straight-up, textbook accurate, but I don't think that's a lie, exactly.(Not that you did, JZ, but every conversation is not a deposition, and that should be all right. Except Gus Straley sock-puppet shit...screw that) Yeah, disturbing fits...


Dana - Apr 18, 2023 6:30:40 pm PDT #21767 of 30000
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."

I didn't even know it was a trigger until now

Of course it's a trigger. That person stepped on a land mine, and you exploded, completely justifiably. I'd wanna fuck them up too, and I'm sorry to say I've mostly gotten past feeling bad about it.


erikaj - Apr 18, 2023 6:32:09 pm PDT #21768 of 30000
I'm a fucking amazing catch!--Fiona Gallagher, Shameless(US)

Why wouldn't it be?


JenP - Apr 18, 2023 6:47:42 pm PDT #21769 of 30000

Good lord, JZ, completely understandable reaction. Who the fuck says something like that person did except to be sadistically hurtful? Rage.


Laura - Apr 18, 2023 6:59:01 pm PDT #21770 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.

I would seriously harm this person if we were in the same room, and I don't like that about myself.

More than understandable. I've really been focusing on trying to let go of bitterness, anger, and all the awful emotions the last few years have brought. Still, I have to say, having sat bedside with each of my parents when they left this plane, it is hard to imagine a bigger trigger.

I'm sorry, JZ. I hope you find an excellent distraction to put that inhumanity behind you.