I didn't even know it was a trigger until now

Of course it's a trigger. That person stepped on a land mine, and you exploded, completely justifiably. I'd wanna fuck them up too, and I'm sorry to say I've mostly gotten past feeling bad about it.

Why wouldn't it be?

Good lord, JZ, completely understandable reaction. Who the fuck says something like that person did except to be sadistically hurtful? Rage.

I would seriously harm this person if we were in the same room, and I don't like that about myself.

More than understandable. I've really been focusing on trying to let go of bitterness, anger, and all the awful emotions the last few years have brought. Still, I have to say, having sat bedside with each of my parents when they left this plane, it is hard to imagine a bigger trigger.

I'm sorry, JZ. I hope you find an excellent distraction to put that inhumanity behind you.

She explained that my "lie" was that they made me wear a hairnet when the current protocols say nothing about hairnets (but they did barely 3 weeks into the pandemic when nobody knew what to do) and a vinyl gown when vinyl is entirely the wrong kind of plastic, hence I am an attention-seeking liar, not that different from John Legend and his dumb wife sharing pictures of their creepy dead baby. Because as we all know, we currently live in an atmosphere of total openness about difficult and scary medical issues, and there's never any need to do what would ordinarily be oversharing because otherwise everyone shuts down and says nothing and feels even worse. Lucky for us we don't live in Shut-down-don't-talk-about-it-Land! That would suck, almost as much as liars suck!

I feel dumb for going so very nuclear

You should not. That seems like a very natural reaction to a very messed up provocation

Oh, JZ, I am so sorry that you have to deal with this type. My heart hurts for you.

Now I am not the smitemaster here, but I do believe that you can put together a most worthy smite for the swine.

I am just so incensed over this! When I think of the countless family members who could not be with their loved ones in the hospital during the height of the pandemic. So much heartbreak.

Ugh, JZ. So infuriating.

We survived our trip to Oklahoma for my MIL's memorial. It had its tense moments, fortunately none of them related to politics, and that extended family is just plain exhausting en masse, but I felt like MIL was honored in a way she would've appreciated, and the three brothers really came together around the memorial service, which was good to see and experience.