Hey hey!
My love for me now / Ain't hard to explain / The Hero of Canton / The man they call...ME.
Jayne ,'Jaynestown'
Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Aims - Feb 08, 2023 8:47:33 pm PST #20537 of 30000
Shit's all sorts of different now.
amyparker - Feb 08, 2023 8:47:43 pm PST #20538 of 30000
You've got friends to have good times with. When you need to share the trauma of a badly-written book with someone, that's when you go to family.
[finds the Empress, sits nearby]
DavidS - Feb 08, 2023 8:52:49 pm PST #20539 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
I think I'm going for more pomped mohawk this time around.
Yassss!
Aims - Feb 08, 2023 9:14:45 pm PST #20540 of 30000
Shit's all sorts of different now.
[finds the Empress, sits nearby]
[snuggles in and sighs]
So, bi-polar depression is a Thing. And it ain't good. Empty nesting has hit me way harder than I anticipated. So many feels. Like, all the feels. And them more feels. And then new feels and old feels and what the fuck feels. I am overwhelmed and sad. Work has been okay. Mostly a lot of faking it until making it. My sleep and eating are completely disordered, executive function is either on overwhelmed or it's on complete shutdown which leads to a nasty shame and self-hatred cycle. I'm starting to negative self-talk out loud in front of my kids.
I need a good, long, ugly cry. But I'm afraid to have one because what if it doesn't stop? I need a new therapist and possibly new or additional drugs. But those are now tricky to figure out with the new blood pressure meds and if they are recommended for people with a history of strokes. And I'm sure peri-menopause isn't helping.
Aims - Feb 08, 2023 9:20:13 pm PST #20541 of 30000
Shit's all sorts of different now.
And this JUST HAPPENS to be the quote in the corner ...
Mal: We're still flying. Simon: That's not much. Mal: It's enough.'Serenity'
amyparker - Feb 08, 2023 9:45:29 pm PST #20542 of 30000
You've got friends to have good times with. When you need to share the trauma of a badly-written book with someone, that's when you go to family.
Oh, darling. I know those feels. The last couple of years have been too much, and the person you were keeping your shit together for is off to have their own adventures. It's hard.
Who there could you go to and say "I need to lose it for a while, can you pet my hair/bring me chocolate/watch cat videos with me?"
Perimenopause is a bitch and a half: you might need to do some medication juggling, but if your PCP is decent, absolutely go to them and tell them what's happening.
All the love to you, babe. I promise it will get easier.
meara - Feb 09, 2023 3:34:42 am PST #20543 of 30000
Ugh why am I awake at 330am? I’ve been awake for close to two hours. I have to get up at 6. I will probably fall back asleep at like 5 and be zonked.
Calli - Feb 09, 2023 3:53:05 am PST #20544 of 30000
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs
That sucks, Aims. I hope you can get more effective meds, and a good, well bounded cry.
meara - Feb 09, 2023 5:52:38 am PST #20545 of 30000
Spoiler: I did not fall back asleep and eventually gave up around 530. Ugh.
Laura - Feb 09, 2023 6:11:21 am PST #20546 of 30000
Our wings are not tired.
Aims! quick tacklehug and snuggle What they all said. I hope it passes soon. but in the meantime allow yourself some time to cry and wallow in it too. I look forward to seeing the new locks.
eta: sends an extra caffeine chocolate bomb to meara