That is rough, Shir, but that you have recognized the toll it is taking on you is huge. Not realizing it would be worse. May you find a method of self care. {{Shir}}

I saw my colleagues' reactions when I showed them that letter, and realized that I was numb because all I could come up with was "oh, yes, readers would love to see this"

I feel that -- I work in fundraising, so there was a lot of similar feelings. Good luck with the counseling.

I'd be ok with a smart lock on my own home but not a rental.

M's mom seemed to be more understanding this morning morning I explained that my big concern was my mom and the dental staff/patients I could be exposing and if it weren't for that I wouldn't be as worried.

I think having some space helped.

And then after that she reminded me M & I should take diapers because the GF's parents are raffling off a shotgun. I asked how many people peope were going to be there...about 60 were invited and around 25 said they'd come.

I kept my mouth shut. I don't know for sure but I'm almost 100% the 3 of us will be the only ones vaccinated that show up. And M and I will be the only ones wearing masks.

Shir definitely take care of yourself . I'm glad you were able to realize the toll it has taken on you and I hope you can get off the wait list and see someone soon.

Raffling off a shotgun? Is this a thing people do?? At a baby shower??

Shir I hope you get a break and some help soon that sounds really hard.

Raffling off a shotgun? Is this a thing people do?? At a baby shower??

Also my reaction!

I'm not sure, but it seems like it would be a big difference having one on your own home versus your rental apartment.

I guess since my landlords have always had the keys to my places, I don't really see the distinction — but, again, I'm not being funded by Big Smartlock or anything. I really don't have strong feelings and am not trying to convince anyone to agree.

Anyway.

Shir, hang in there.

Fun raffles (and meat raffles!) are definitely a big thing in the Wisconsin countryside. Usually at bars though.

ETA: Gun raffles, that is. Fun raffles I have no objection to, though I suppose the devil is in the details.

I’ve heard of meat raffles. And there are events for which a shotgun raffle would not shock me. But for a baby shower???

I think I don’t know enough about smart locks to know what their risks are. I have a keypad lock, which yeah, possible that old roommates have given the code to tons of people but I change it every once in a while. It’s handy. Might be easier if it were fancier and I could change it from an app or something but then I’d have to change the batteries more too!

M & I should take diapers because the GF's parents are raffling off a shotgun.

I am not seeing the connection.

I was doing so well today. Got out of the house, ran errands, started knitting, but I had a headache (took meds) and I cannot get comfortable or warm. I already took a shower this morning, but I think I need another or a hot soak bath to warm up and reset the day.