Uuuuuugh. Woke up with a belly ache and had to go throw up before even feeding the cats. This was not my plan for the day.

Gud-is-good-bot isn't even gonna yell today. Just know that you ARE good, and deserving of help and support, and we're behind you in a million ways big and small.

-t, feel better soon.

I'm sorry, -t. Tummy~ma.

I should be productive today since I really wasn't yesterday. I stayed in bed until 8 this morning! Read a couple chapters instead of getting up early as usual. I know better than to try and actually sleep in. I did get up and feed the animals and left the back door open for them. Then back into bed with a book. Whee!

I guess I'll do dishes now.

Oh no, -t! I hope that was a one-off.

Yessss, Laura. That is a good morning!

I did some more cleaning this morning, mostly dishes and vacuuming. I have some friends coming over next weekend, so it's a little more purposeful than it might be....

I also went and got some free Allbirds, thanks to a Facebook group, and I don't like them! Partly I think this pair is a little small for me, but mostly I actually do want more structure in my shoes. So that's good to know.

Gud, I really hope you call 1-800-273-8255.

Tried to say I didn't want her isolating herself this morning, but that didn't go over well. She hit me with a remember-when-you-did-x-bad-thing and I didn't really have a good answer. I'm not sure what to do, partly I'm just fundamentally not a good person and I make mistakes which I really shouldn't.

Maybe I shouldn't be talking about this at all. I don't want to bring the board down with my own problems and failings.

Speaking of the board. I haven't been getting much (i.e. anything) done with the new board lately. New job and personal stuff has been eating up my time. There's not a ton left to do at the moment though.

Gud, you are trying to do good as best you can and that is all any of us can do. I wish you could let go of this idea that you shouldn't make mistakes. Letting your wife isolate herself from the rest of the family for a bit is maybe a pretty good way forward for all of you, really.

Sent an email to everyone above me at work that I will be out tomorrow and rescheduled my dentists appointment to next week. Have successfully kept down almost half a cup of water, feeling good about that!

Gud. You are a good person. Anyone that doesn't think so, including you, is wrong. It is tragic that your wife does not recognize your value, but more tragic that you don't.

Gud, how does it feel to you when we tell you that you are a good person deserving of love and support? What do you think when you read that? I know we can't overcome or make up for all the terrible things your wife says to you, but I fervently hope that you can at least hear and believe us, and trust that we are telling you the truth.

I tried to like that, Kate.