Thinking you deserve abuse is one of the saddest things I can think of. Especially from your spouse. It's the foundation, the very building blocks of a marriage that YOU DO NOT ABUSE YOUR SPOUSE.

There is nothing -- NOTHING -- you can do to "deserve" abuse from your spouse.

I really really hope she doesn't emotionally abuse your children this way. (I mean, my parents were emotionally -- and in the case of my dad, physically -- abusive to each other, and they were also so abusive to my brother and to me that each of our therapists [independent of each other] have reacted to certain stories of our childhood with the very unprofessional statements of "Your parents are FUCKED UP" and "Christ, not this asshole again.") I fervently hope that she reserves all her abuse just for you. But I honestly can't imagine that that's the case. She should be out of your lives and you and your children should see a good therapist. All 3 of you deserve so much better.

Good news on the Brenda front! I am relieved to learn this.

Gudwife should shut her yap and go earn health insurance that is good enough for her.

Yay Brenda, I am glad to hear you are alive, even if it sounds like you're in need of some cosseting. Do they know WHY you are clotted and depleted? That seems important. Also, my condolences if you now have to inject yourself with blood thinner for weeks. I hated that part.

I have all these things I'd like to accomplish today, but I also feel like being lazy. I perhaps should eat something more than a cup of coffee (...it had lots of half and half in it?)

Timelies all!

Mr. S has been behaving badly today. In the supermarket he threw one of his shoes and hit me in the face. Then he threw something at gary while he was driving home. He's been in his room since we got back. What is it with this child and Sundays?

Sending healing~ma your way, Brenda.

Sympathies, Sheryl. It is so exhausting. It's a shame they don't get that we all have more fun when they behave.

I'm certainly glad you were able to get All the Tests, brenda! That is a scary cluster of symptoms. I hope you're able to get them minimized.

They don't know why on the clotting, but the anemia may actually be uterine. Thank dog they now have an oral medication for the clotting. Those shots were terrible.

Thank you for checking in, Brenda. I bet those shots were horrible.

Gud, do me a favor: you spend a lot of time giving your wife the benefit of the doubt. Can you give yourself the benefit of the doubt?

Because this needs to be repeated. Many times.

GUD YOU ARE AN AWESOME PERSON AND YOU DON'T DESERVE THIS

THIS ALSO NEEDS TO BE REPEATED MANY TIMES!

Gud, as a thought exercise, do you accept that sometimes, people getting angry is not justified, and even when it is, they are sometimes angry at a person or thing that is not the cause of their anger.

When you can, can you consider that your wife's anger is not always justified? Which does not mean that you don't have to deal with it, but that you should not internalize it.

In other words, just because your wife is angry, doesn't mean that you made a mistake. For example, if your wife is angry that you have not made dinner, but the reason that you haven't made dinner is that you are physically unable to do so, you have not done anything wrong. You may need to ride out the anger, but you should not allow yourself to feel badly because of it.

That all sounds promising, brenda. I hope it all works well and your body gets its act together!