Please Gud see someone at least just to talk. Everyone makes mistakes we are people.
You have 2 kids who are old enough to cook and help around the house and your wife. You shouldn't be trying to do that all on your own.
Sorry, Captain. I'm real sorry. I shoulda kept better care of her. Usually she lets me know when something's wrong. Maybe she did, I just wasn't paying attention...
Kaylee ,'Out Of Gas'
Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
askye - Jul 17, 2020 4:43:35 am PDT #23684 of 30019
Thrive to spite them
-t - Jul 17, 2020 5:49:18 am PDT #23685 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
Oh, Gud, I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. None of that actually sounds like its your fault, although I know it is hard to believe that when it is how you feel and you do get blamed. I'm sorry, man.
Other people having bigger problems does not make your problems smaller, alas.
Laura - Jul 17, 2020 7:24:28 am PDT #23686 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.
Oh dear. RBG announced her cancer is back, but the good news is she isn't going anywhere.
Gudanov - Jul 17, 2020 7:38:06 am PDT #23687 of 30019
Coding and Sleeping
Thanks. I'm not sure talking to somebody will help if I'm at heart just not a good person. Also, it's just too expensive right now.
Dana - Jul 17, 2020 7:42:34 am PDT #23688 of 30019
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
Gud, of course you're a good person.
Toddson - Jul 17, 2020 7:51:59 am PDT #23689 of 30019
Friends don't let friends read "Atlas Shrugged"
Maybe talking to someone will help you realize you are a good person.
-t - Jul 17, 2020 7:55:22 am PDT #23690 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
if I'm at heart just not a good person
Well, that's a false premise. I struggle with that feeling as well, Gud, and I know our brains can be very persuasive, but it's not true.
Laura - Jul 17, 2020 8:01:43 am PDT #23691 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.
Gud, stop telling lies about our friend. Gud is a good person, in fact, a very good person.
Amy - Jul 17, 2020 8:09:58 am PDT #23692 of 30019
Because books.
Gud, a bad person wouldn't care about others, or the way they feel. Bad people don't feel guilt (however misplaced) and don't feel upset that they've disappointed someone (even if that person's expectations are entirely selfish ). GOOD people feel those things. You're one of them. If therapy is too costly right now, there some free things online you could try. Or you could ask a priest or a minister to listen. You don't have to be alone in this.
msbelle - Jul 17, 2020 8:16:03 am PDT #23693 of 30019
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
Also, it's just too expensive right now.
1) you are a good person.
2) Caring for yourself needs to be prioritized.
Is anyone else contributing to the finances of your household? If not, why not.
I know we have asked before, and I am sorry if I do not remember the answer, but is mental health not covered by your insurance at all? No EAP? No tele-therapy through your insurance? (your post served as a reminder to me to schedule on-line therapy since I have not been to therapy since January and both my nail biting and lip biting are getting worse which is a giant sign of spiraling anxiety - so in the midst of typing this post I scheduled a session for next week - my insurance is now offering online visits for all types of Drs at $15 each).