She's gone, but her final thread continues to be a shit show. It's kind of revolting.
Personally having a really shitty run of days, and I'm not sure what to do about it. The anxiety hasn't been this bad in 5 years. I feel stuck.
I can handle the Oz Full Monty. I mean, not 'handle' handle.
Xander ,'Help'
Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?
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Maria - Jul 04, 2017 2:50:57 pm PDT #853 of 8185
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Amy - Jul 04, 2017 4:36:34 pm PDT #854 of 8185
Because books.
I always feel weird coming in here when I haven't been in a while, but I'm right there with you, Maria. As I just said in Natter, I don't think my AD (fluoxetine) is working anymore, i.e. I haven't showered in two days and can barely get off the couch.
WindSparrow - Jul 04, 2017 5:02:29 pm PDT #855 of 8185
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Dear ones, please do what you need to in order to get unstuck.
Steph L. - Jul 04, 2017 5:07:07 pm PDT #856 of 8185
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
I've been having panic attacks often. Two days in a row now, which is very unusual for me. Shit is overwhelming, but I'm trying to get a handle on it.
Steph L. - Jul 04, 2017 5:09:00 pm PDT #857 of 8185
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
Amy, I meant to say, SSRIs can just stop working. It's a known thing. Awesome Doctor refers to it as "pooping out." Switching to another SSRI may be all you need to do, if the fluoxetine was working.
Dana - Jul 04, 2017 5:11:17 pm PDT #858 of 8185
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
Amy, I commented in Natter, but what Steph said. It's one of the things my husband has found most frustrating to deal with regarding my depression. What do you mean it just stops working? Why? What do you mean they don't know why? Can't you predict it? Not at all? It's just basically a toss-up?
Maria - Jul 04, 2017 5:19:37 pm PDT #859 of 8185
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Ugh, Amy. I'm sorry you are too.
I don't even know where to begin. I have never taken meds. I don't have a doc or therapist here. It's always been a "gonna get through this on my own" thing. But I feel like I'm vibrating out of my skin.
Steph L. - Jul 04, 2017 5:28:36 pm PDT #860 of 8185
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
Maria, the way I tried to narrow down finding a therapist -- if that's what you want to pursue -- was by searching on Psychology Today's find a therapist listing: [link] and seeing who sounded like someone with expertise in my issues AND who was on my insurance plan.
If you decide you might want to pursue therapy -- it is HARD as shit and painful and ugly, but it's also REALLY helping me, more than I thought it ever, ever could -- I'd recommend using that website to try to narrow it down.
Maria - Jul 04, 2017 5:32:48 pm PDT #861 of 8185
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Thank you, Teppy. I am petrified of therapy at this point, because I'm half-convinced that I haven't made as much progress as I thought I have. Ridiculous, I know.
Amy - Jul 04, 2017 5:35:34 pm PDT #862 of 8185
Because books.
I need to go back to the woman I'd started seeing. I liked her enormously the first time, but the second time she kind of irritated me, and then she went on vacation, and it's been a few weeks. I think I need to give her another shot.
I'm sorry about the panic attacks, Steph.
Dana, I used to take citalopram, and switched to fluoxetine because ... the citalopram had stopped working? Or it might have been an insurance issue. I should try switching back.