Valium sounds nice.

Funny, I'm about to get my Mirena yanked after only 2.5 years. Between the persistent weight increase and energy level decrease, I'm unhappy enough to voluntarily choose having periods again.

I had an IUD for a couple years (Mirena) and liked it quite well. Installation was uncomfortable, but, in the long run, a definite win for me. I also had the slim-to-none periods side effect, which was lovely

I know my usual complaint after therapy is to say "Therapy is BULLSHIT," but I am here to say: my parents are complete BULLSHIT. Fuck them.

Therapy was brutal today. It'll help -- it's *been* helping -- but it is so fucking hard.

And now I have to run to the hardware store in 500-degree weather because all the ants on the planet are having a party in our kitchen. All of them. If this is viral marketing for Ant-Man and the Wasp, it is total overkill.

You're my hero, Steph.

I am emotionally wrecked today, you guys. I am getting no work done, damn it. Though I did manage to run errands and throw in a load of laundry. But otherwise, I just keep looking for a distraction/self-soothing. And work is not soothing.

I also didn't get enough sleep, because I stayed up until about 1:30 last night with the kitty, because the illegal fireworks were freaking him out. Also, I'm PMSing. So therapy + not enough sleep + PMS is a trifecta of nonfunctionality. And yet I'm incapable of napping unless I'm ill or drugged (and I feel like taking meds to make myself sleepy enough to nap might be a very poor coping strategy at the moment, so I'm not going to do that).

I'm glad I'm in therapy, but my god, it's so unbelievably hard some days. And my brother and I deserved better parents. God damn it.

t edit And the kitty just jumped up next to me and laid down, and I thought it was to snuggle, and I was really touched...for like 2 seconds, because he immediately started eating the skirt of my dress. He's so poorly socialized. Sheesh.

Yes, you did deserve better parents. Since that isn't one of the options you have to nurture yourself now. And you and your brother can nurture and support each other. Better late than never!

my brother and I deserved better parents. God damn it.

It is just SO UNFAIR.

I wish it were easier to see our parents as they were, rather than as we wished they were.

I'm so sorry, Teppy and Tom. My parents were too young and fucked up a lot, but it was from inexperience, not for lack of love or trying. These days, I'm feeling really betrayed and unloved by my dad and his 45-loving self, though.

So I just found out my brother , his girlfriend, and E are moving to Virginia in a month or so. Evander doesn't know. Mom is devastated . They will be 7 hours from here and 12 hours from my dad.

His GF got a job that pays 2x as much and my brother has a horrible commute and barely sees E. So he will be a stay at home dad until he gets a job.

But this is going to be so hard. Especially for Mom.

I also have this weird feeling they want to put distance between them and Mom.

I dunno. It's weird and Mom is going to be super depressed. Plus I'll be sad. I am getting to the point where I can do more with him and not get overwhelmed.