I brushed my teeth, then felt dizzy and had to sit down again. I'll go to the pharmacy tomorrow.
But if the world doesn't end, I'm gonna need a note.
Cordelia ,'Potential'
Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?
Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Hil R. - May 30, 2018 2:20:50 pm PDT #3899 of 8219
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:12:18 pm PDT #3900 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
[CW: suicidal ideation] [NOT mine]
ISTG, Tim's not!son is a swirling vortex of chaos. The dude is still in jail (though I think in the next week or 2 he "graduates" to a halfway house), so you'd think we wouldn't have to deal with his bullshit. But no. Everything in his life is just imbued with the same chaos-generating force.
His girlfriend showed up on our doorstep 2 hours ago and announced that she's suicidal and actively planning it and just needs somewhere to get away from her mom for a few hours, so she's here to play with Murderbiscuit, and marched on into our house.
Prior to that she had apparently talked on the phone with Tim for quite a while, and I am super annoyed that he didn't bother to even text me with a heads-up that she was suicidal and going to park herself in our living room while I was trying to work.
And I am 100%, 1000%, vastly unqualified to even deal with someone who's actively making plans to kill themself. I don't know how to deal with it. Other than try to dial down the extreme panic response it sparks in me. And furthermore, I shouldn't fucking have to deal with this. Tim finally got home from work, and I retreated into the bedroom with the excuse of finishing my editing (which I am obviously not doing), and he can fucking deal with her.
I am super full of rage right now, which is not the most compassionate response to someone who's in so much pain they're contemplating suicide, but hey. I didn't act on my rage. And I am REALLY glad I have therapy tomorrow.
And I have no idea what happens next. I can't force her to go to the psych ER, but that's where she belongs.
Tom Scola - May 30, 2018 3:23:23 pm PDT #3901 of 8219
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
Jesus Christ, Steph. I'm sorry.
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:31:51 pm PDT #3902 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
I'm not just full of Hulk rage, I'm hangry. I didn't get dinner because not!son's GF showed up at 6:00 when I was thinking about what to make, and she's still fucking here. And I don't want to feed her dinner. So I'm still in the bedroom, hangry as hell and full of rage.
Dana - May 30, 2018 3:33:34 pm PDT #3903 of 8219
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
Can Tim bring you something you can snack on? You've got every reason to be angry. You shouldn't have to also be hungry.
sj - May 30, 2018 3:35:13 pm PDT #3904 of 8219
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Can you make up an excuse to leave and take yourself out to dinner?
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:35:28 pm PDT #3905 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
If I go out there and ask him to bring me something, he'll just ask what I want to do for dinner, and I won't be able to answer "Eat it BY OURSELVES."
Though I might stomp through and get a box of crackers.
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:35:50 pm PDT #3906 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Can you make up an excuse to leave and take yourself out to dinner?
GF's van is blocking our driveway, because of course it is.
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:36:58 pm PDT #3907 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
I'm also too gross and filthy to go out to eat, because I worked out this afternoon (ALSO why I'm fucking starving right now) and planned to shower before dinner.
I'm like, fire-hands angry. Like the kid in Deadpool 2.
Steph L. - May 30, 2018 3:37:29 pm PDT #3908 of 8219
I look more rad than Lutheranism
(My poor therapist. I compare all my issues to comic-book movie characters and then she has no idea what I mean.)