Super sugar. I have such trouble with flats, they can be uncomfortable to the point that I cannot walk in them. Have not tried that brand.

I am not getting a 4th cold since ltc started school 2 months ago. I refuse.

Oh, little children. The original harbingers of germs.

I can rarely find flats that fit me comfortably because my feet are so wide they're almost square. Ditto for strappy sandals. But those are cute!

I'm waiting to get the CT done of my jaw. I hadn't been stressing over it, but now that I'm here... anxiety through the roof.

That's stressful, Suzi!

Glam, what size shoe do you wear? I may have a pair I never ever wear (...I really need to dig everything out of my closet and remember what I own and should wear, also)

Calm~ma to you Suzi.

My day was long. It was also my day off. I don't know when my next one is but I don't want to drive anywhere that day.

I forgot to tell my shrink I'm thinking of switching. Got distracted in therapy and never asked advise on how to handle that.

The shrink wanted me to try some new medicine for ADD that starts with an E. She said the insurance might deny it and that if it didn't work she'd start me on Ritilan. The new drug ianthe same class as Vyvanse and Adderall and I opted to not try it. 1 I don't want to fight with insurance when I'm not sure what my insurance situation will be next year and 2 I hate dealing with insurance anyway and 3 I've already had side effects with the other 2 meds and I'm ready for something new.

I did get a cute outfit and saw shoes I liked but even with my work discount are too much right now.

I did get some Baretrap shoes the other day they are comfortable.

The nephew is sick. I'm hoping I don't catch what he has but whatever it is gas been going around schools.

I love those wingtip Docs. wow.

also I need shoes, but wasn't planning on getting wingtips, but... dang

Okay, braindump time. Sorry, it's long. I had a long overdue chat with HR yesterday about how I don't want to stay with the company and would like to take advantage of the severance package I was offered in the spring when my old department was disbanded, and now I'm freaking out that I will never find another job again because I don't actually know how to do anything.

My career has gone completely off the rails and I don't know how to get back on track. I don't want to stay in tech, I don't particularly want to go back to media, and I'm terrified that I don't really know how to do anything else. The job I have now pays a stupid amount of money, but the commute is literally killing me (2 hours each way is not uncommon), I don't believe in where the company is going, and I think the role I have is basically bullshit. And it's bullshit I'm not really that good at because I am not a 25 year old with an MBA. I want to work close to home so I can see my kids for more than an hour a day, but I'm terrified I will never find anything that pays this well ever again, and maybe I can give my kids more in the long run by sticking it out? Am I a snob if I think I'd be giving up something important by looking for something that's just a *job* and not a career? Why, at age 39, am I still completely blank about what I want to be when I grow up? If I went back to school, would that help, or would that just make me 20 years older than everyone else I'd be competing with when I got out? What would I even go back to school for? Am I having a completely normal midlife crisis, and should I just wait it out?

That's a miserable commute, and a perfectly good reason not to stay in a job. Let alone the other reasons. You're unhappy, and I think it's probably more important to your kids that you're happy.

Oh, Jess. It sounds like leaving is the right thing to do, if terrifying. I hope you can give yourself some time to think about what you want and maybe even figure out how to get there. I wish I had good answers.