Not to worry, in no time at all she won't want to go to school at all, or be like me and skip out all the time. t not helpful

Heh.

Of course because she napped in the car, I didn't get a nap.

I think your parenting is fine, sj. Clearly the problem is with ltc's Childing. We'll hope she steps it up next time.

Jilli, that's so sad about StuntHusband. I had a real fondness for him and was bewildered when things went pear shaped here. Glad you can talk to us about what happened, and I'm so sorry.

Wait, what happened with StuntHusband? I just saw the weirdness about the ex.

A few years ago, StuntHusband, who has a long history of doing this to other friends, decided I wasn't paying enough attention to him, blew up dramatically at me, and when I called him on it and pointed out the pattern, cut off all contact and scorched the earth. The emotional wound is still raw, and was recently poked at by a couple of the kids on tumblr asking if I was still friends with him, because I haven't mentioned him in a while.

sj, your parenting is fine. It is, and please don't beat yourself up.

Today has been a MUCH BETTER DAY - at least so far. I adore my doc. I cried, we talked, I cried. We are going to shift from Citalopram to Zoloft over the next three weeks. Since that is going to take time to provide relief, she is adding Buspar, which I'm not familiar with.

Apparently she though I'd been taking Bupropion also, which certainly isn't in my current med routine. I don't recall taking it in the past. For now we aren't going to add that (back) in - will decide after my follow-up in a month.

We also talked about the lump in my chin/jaw. I'm getting an ultrasound tomorrow to see if I need to go to an ENT or Neurologist. She said she didn't see my smile as lopsided, yet that is all I see. Kelly noticed it also.

I treated myself to a massage after the doctor - lucked into an appointment with a gal who ended up being GREAT. I wish she was closer to home, but for the short term I'll make the drive to her until I get past all this tense shit. Doc also gave me the names of some therapists. Not sure if I'm up for that (bad prior experiences) yet. Will talk with our dear Bonny first.

Now that I'm home, I'm sitting on the back porch, enjoying a beautiful afternoon and am going to make lists of stuff that needs to be done from the house to self care to school and so on.

Suzi, I'm so glad today is better.

Hugs to all who need/want them.

It's been A Few Days. Between the "me too" posts (which are good! Just difficult for me to process, and I can't bear the thought of chiming in and doing one more piece of emotional labor), and work schedule bullshit, and Peanut being Very Much a Toddler, and having to deal with a creepy co-worker that isn't creepy enough for male managers to understand/notice, and our lack of social life, and possibly losing my insurance, and and and. Which isn't even taking into account everything else going on out in the world.

I need to go to a psychologist, I know this, but when I'm going to be able to schedule it and whether or not I could make regular appointments seems like an insurmountable barrier.