Suzi, I'm sorry the depression weasels are in your brain. The way you describe it is just what I experience too. It's so hard to feel like you're dragging yourself through quicksand all the time. I'm glad you got an appointment with the doctor quickly. Just, idk, keep going, okay? Relief will happen. Just keep going.

Jilli, don't even answer him. The fucker doesn't deserve a moment of your energy.

I'm sorry, Suzi. It's so hard.

Yeah, not responding seems like the best choice there, Jilli.

Suzi, that is so rough. I've been there. Working in pjs, unable to get off the couch even to go to bed, gaining weight, house clutter worse than usual, crying -- all of it. But I think you've gotten past the hardest part, which is getting in to see your doctor. It WILL get better from here. Not as quickly as you'd like, but it will get better.

Well, the tears prompted questions if I was a hazard to myself or not and she would call me back in 10 minutes. Now I have an appointment tomorrow morning.

I did the exact same thing last month. I really, really know how you feel. Hang in there. We've got your back and we love you.

Oh Suzi. It's so rough, and we're here for you.

As I told Plei, if the psycho ex from NJ comes out of the woodwork because of this, I will officially Freak The Fuck Out, and possibly put a protective ring of salt around myself.

I'm wearing a cross, Jilli. Let me know if you need me to brandish it Eastward.

What everyone said, Suzi. I wish it wasn't so hard. Big hugs and an "I'm here" if ever want someone to text (or FB message). Also, not sure if this will help you, although it did for me -- when I was working at home all the time, I made sure to get out of the house and work twice a week, if I could. Just Panera or Starbucks or whatever, but it helped.

But I think you've gotten past the hardest part, which is getting in to see your doctor. It WILL get better from here. Not as quickly as you'd like, but it will get better.

I think Steph is right, and wise.

Suzi, sounds like you've made that all-important first step. Not saying the next bit won't be a slog. But I know you're strong enough, though I'm sorry that you're going through it.

(Makes giant ((non threatening!)) hug gesture) Inertia sucks so hard--I'm dismayed by how many of us deal with it. It just. Well, it sucks. Suzi, may you and your doc arrive at a workable solution very quickly.

Jilli, I agree. You don't owe him any sort of response (except a repelling/warding gesture, should it help you feel better).

I'ma go...over there, and put all my parentheses in a drawer, for now.

I was way behind and now I'm caught up.

Hello.

Jilli, that's so sad about StuntHusband. I had a real fondness for him and was bewildered when things went pear shaped here. Glad you can talk to us about what happened, and I'm so sorry. As for your abusive ex... I hope he lives a long life alone with his regrets. And don't forget that a protective ring of Buffistas is also an option for dealing with fuckos.

Suzi, hon, I'm sorry you're in that place and glad you have an appointment.

flea, I am so annoyed that your director places "looking friendly and approachable" over staff safety. Annoyed, but not surprised.

I just ate a ton of Halloween Joe Joe's and gave myself acid reflux, which is not going to help with anxiety. I think I just need to go to bed and reboot for tomorrow.