Do you know what else has blood in it? Blood.

Spike ,'Sleeper'


Spike's Bitches 49: As usual, I'm here to help you, and I... are you naked under there?

Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Steph L. - Oct 16, 2017 1:31:00 pm PDT #2255 of 8214
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Suzi, that is so rough. I've been there. Working in pjs, unable to get off the couch even to go to bed, gaining weight, house clutter worse than usual, crying -- all of it. But I think you've gotten past the hardest part, which is getting in to see your doctor. It WILL get better from here. Not as quickly as you'd like, but it will get better.

Well, the tears prompted questions if I was a hazard to myself or not and she would call me back in 10 minutes. Now I have an appointment tomorrow morning.

I did the exact same thing last month. I really, really know how you feel. Hang in there. We've got your back and we love you.


Atropa - Oct 16, 2017 1:36:28 pm PDT #2256 of 8214
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.

Oh Suzi. It's so rough, and we're here for you.

As I told Plei, if the psycho ex from NJ comes out of the woodwork because of this, I will officially Freak The Fuck Out, and possibly put a protective ring of salt around myself.


EpicTangent - Oct 16, 2017 1:43:57 pm PDT #2257 of 8214
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty

I'm wearing a cross, Jilli. Let me know if you need me to brandish it Eastward.


Amy - Oct 16, 2017 1:44:23 pm PDT #2258 of 8214
Because books.

What everyone said, Suzi. I wish it wasn't so hard. Big hugs and an "I'm here" if ever want someone to text (or FB message). Also, not sure if this will help you, although it did for me -- when I was working at home all the time, I made sure to get out of the house and work twice a week, if I could. Just Panera or Starbucks or whatever, but it helped.


Dana - Oct 16, 2017 1:46:56 pm PDT #2259 of 8214
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.

But I think you've gotten past the hardest part, which is getting in to see your doctor. It WILL get better from here. Not as quickly as you'd like, but it will get better.

I think Steph is right, and wise.


EpicTangent - Oct 16, 2017 1:54:05 pm PDT #2260 of 8214
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty

Suzi, sounds like you've made that all-important first step. Not saying the next bit won't be a slog. But I know you're strong enough, though I'm sorry that you're going through it.


Beverly - Oct 16, 2017 1:55:48 pm PDT #2261 of 8214
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.

(Makes giant ((non threatening!)) hug gesture) Inertia sucks so hard--I'm dismayed by how many of us deal with it. It just. Well, it sucks. Suzi, may you and your doc arrive at a workable solution very quickly.

Jilli, I agree. You don't owe him any sort of response (except a repelling/warding gesture, should it help you feel better).

I'ma go...over there, and put all my parentheses in a drawer, for now.


smonster - Oct 16, 2017 4:17:24 pm PDT #2262 of 8214
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

I was way behind and now I'm caught up.

Hello.

Jilli, that's so sad about StuntHusband. I had a real fondness for him and was bewildered when things went pear shaped here. Glad you can talk to us about what happened, and I'm so sorry. As for your abusive ex... I hope he lives a long life alone with his regrets. And don't forget that a protective ring of Buffistas is also an option for dealing with fuckos.

Suzi, hon, I'm sorry you're in that place and glad you have an appointment.

flea, I am so annoyed that your director places "looking friendly and approachable" over staff safety. Annoyed, but not surprised.

I just ate a ton of Halloween Joe Joe's and gave myself acid reflux, which is not going to help with anxiety. I think I just need to go to bed and reboot for tomorrow.


WindSparrow - Oct 16, 2017 7:43:25 pm PDT #2263 of 8214
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.

Suzi, I'm glad you are taking care of yourself. It is a hard thing to do when depression is in play.


Steph L. - Oct 17, 2017 3:14:39 am PDT #2264 of 8214
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Okay, I dropped the kitty off at the vet, who is also going to trim his Wolverine-like claws and give him a microchip along with the neutering. Ice packs for everyone!