Oh! I did make my 13 rides, so the bonus money is mine. It's nice to have achievable goals.
I would be there right now.
Simon ,'Objects In Space'
Natter 75: More Than a Million Natters Served
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Theodosia - Aug 19, 2018 10:28:52 am PDT #28520 of 30002
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"
-t - Aug 19, 2018 10:53:51 am PDT #28521 of 30002
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
Woo Theo!
Sheryl - Aug 19, 2018 11:23:37 am PDT #28522 of 30002
Fandom means never having to say "But where would I wear that?"
Yay, Theo!
lisah - Aug 19, 2018 11:25:57 am PDT #28523 of 30002
Punishingly Intricate
Go with your gut, Sophia. It's been telling you what you need to know all along.
For sure!! And therapy is a great idea.
Sue - Aug 19, 2018 12:53:22 pm PDT #28524 of 30002
hip deep in pie
Sophia, that is a lot. I think you're instincts are right, but talking to an objective person is wise.
Dad update: I was all set to go up home today when my sister called that they'll be transporting my dad here this week because his defibrillator/pacemaker needs its battery changed. His heart rhythms seems to be stabilized after a medication change. Now they're waiting for a bed to become available for him here.
Consuela - Aug 19, 2018 2:17:31 pm PDT #28525 of 30002
We are Buffistas. This isn't our first apocalypse. -- Pix
Much health-ma to everyone.
I need to do laundry and vacuum, but instead I'm crashed on the couch watching Vividcon vids.
Jesse - Aug 19, 2018 2:28:51 pm PDT #28526 of 30002
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
Good thing you didn't get there, then, Sue?
Definitely trust your gut, Sophia, and why not also talk to someone! (I should try finding a therapist again after the one person I emailed never wrote back.)
Yay bonus, Theo!
Sue - Aug 19, 2018 2:47:09 pm PDT #28527 of 30002
hip deep in pie
Good thing you didn't get there, then, Sue?
Seriously, I was a just a couple of hours away from leaving.
Amy - Aug 19, 2018 3:07:06 pm PDT #28528 of 30002
Because books.
Sue, so much ~ma to you and your poor dad.
Sophia, that is a whole lot to parse on your own, but I think going with your gut is the best call. Finding someone to talk it out with would also be a good thing, though.
Sophia Brooks - Aug 19, 2018 4:07:44 pm PDT #28529 of 30002
Cats to become a rabbit should gather immediately now here
Thanks guys. The reason I am a little reluctant about therapy is that my last bout with therapy, in my twenties, about this same issue led to a horrible, horrible confrontation with my mother which had pretty long lasting consequences. This family seem like nice, high class, pretty, rich golf playing people who would probably think I am weird and cause my mother to go off the deep end. So I probably won't listen to a therapist about talking to my mother, because it was really bad the last time. My BFF is just imagining how badly my mother will be hurt if I don't tell her and she found out. QaI think I might be able to say I met an unknown relative on 23 and me and we would meet, but I think it would make her crazy that I already investigated and knew they existed before our match. Not my particular match person (my niece), but I knew the potential brothers and sisters and the parts of their life that I could google because they are fairly locally prominent. So even if I tell my mother now, I have been sitting on this for years!