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Natter 75: More Than a Million Natters Served
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Gudanov - Aug 03, 2018 1:05:39 pm PDT #27999 of 30002
Coding and Sleeping
Kate P. - Aug 03, 2018 1:11:37 pm PDT #28000 of 30002
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love
with any luck I won't wake up and the world will be better for it
The world will most certainly not be better off without you. That is abuse talking, not reality.
I know others have said this before, but it bears repeating, especially since your wife seems determined to instill a very different message. You are a worthy person. Even on your worst days (which we all have, everyone on earth!), you deserve love and compassion. Full stop.
Dana - Aug 03, 2018 1:14:04 pm PDT #28001 of 30002
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
Your mood may also be affected by your time in the hospital. You can't ever get good sleep, you already don't feel well, it's an unfamiliar environment, your routines are disrupted.
But your wife should be taking care of you after you come home from the bleeping hospital.
Steph L. - Aug 03, 2018 1:17:54 pm PDT #28002 of 30002
I look more rad than Lutheranism
She seems super mad at and I have no idea why. I probably did something shitty because I'm a shitty person.
Your wife is the shitty person. Only an abusive asshole treats their spouse like shit when he comes home from the hospital. She is an abusive piece of shit, and I wish you would take the kids and leave her. All 3 of you would be better off without her abusive, poisonous presence in your life.
amyth - Aug 03, 2018 1:27:00 pm PDT #28003 of 30002
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
Gud, please believe us when we say that you are a worthwhile person. The world would be a lesser place without you in it, we would all miss you, and your children would miss you terribly. It's hard to believe that about yourself sometimes when you're stuck in an abusive situation and you can't see a way out, but you're not a shitty person. It's terrible that your wife would make you feel that way at any point, but especially when you just got out of the hospital.
amyth - Aug 03, 2018 1:29:39 pm PDT #28004 of 30002
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
I live at RDU airport now.
amych - Aug 03, 2018 1:46:55 pm PDT #28005 of 30002
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?
RDU airport is very possibly a shitty person. Gud is not.
sj - Aug 03, 2018 2:49:23 pm PDT #28006 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Gud, I know you said you can't afford therapy but you really can't afford not to with those words playing in your head. If you won't do it for you, please do it for your kids.
Steph L. - Aug 03, 2018 2:59:18 pm PDT #28007 of 30002
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Gud, I know you said you can't afford therapy
Lots of therapists have sliding-scale payment plans. And your company probably has an EAP that could point you toward good resources.
shrift - Aug 03, 2018 3:40:19 pm PDT #28008 of 30002
"You can't put a price on the joy of not giving a shit." -Zenkitty
t quietly surrounds Gud in bubble wrap while he naps and sets an alarm