Y'all just made me refill my tea. Without me realizing it. I was reading, got up, got tea, came back and realized sj made me get tea.
I'm in Salt Lake for my monthly meetings and my PM asked me something about last week and it had to do, indirectly, with me taking last Tuesday off. In trying to explain without explaining, I almost burst into tears.
So many I wishes and if onlys and I shouldas and whys.
In trying to explain without explaining, I almost burst into tears.
Today I had to answer an email without saying, "I'm sorry for the delayed response, but unfortunately for you, you sent your email on the day I found out my friend died."
I've been simply avoided explaining to anyone who saw or heard me cry.
The google hangout was a bit of a struggle getting connected...since I'm totally inept with such things...and I did not have much to say, but honestly, seeing faces and hearing voices made a huge difference for me.
So grateful that happened.
I started sniffling when I opened a NY Times food e-mail and it had a recipe for Montreal bagels.
Tonight was a new Supernatural. Which she won't get to see. That's all I could think when the commercials came on.
The past few days, I've stopped crying, but I still feel like I've been punched in the heart.
I thought about her when I saw there was a new episode of Supernatural, too. Dammit.
Tonight was a new Supernatural. Which she won't get to see. That's all I could think when the commercials came on.
This is the kind of thing that makes my breath still for a moment.
It's okay. ita lives in the internet now; she can stream it.
Dan and I went to dinner because we had a showing at 6. We were getting up and I was talking about how I had to catch up on "Sleepy Hollow" and he said, "Oh, there's a new SPN tonight."
I was all "Really? I thought it didn't come back till February? Huh."
And then it hit me, and I was all "Oh! Oh. Oh." And I sat down again. Dan was "What?" and I just looked at him and said "ita will never see it."
I'm so glad he gets it. He followed her SPN Tumblr BEFORE I knew he followed SPN Tumblrs, and he showed me something one day, and I cracked up, because I was like "That's my friend ita's Tumblr! She made B.org!"
It's okay. ita lives in the internet now; she can stream it.
I love you so much right now, Kiba.