I was thinking of ita today and yesterday. Yesterday when I got my buzzcut and thinking I should really find a barber for upkeep. It would probably be cheaper.

And I also really want a tattoo, I was thinking of one thing but I keep looking at the purple dragonfly she drew. I want to take that and another dragonfly reference I have to Steph's "family" tattoo artist and ask him to make a custom piece combine the two images with some kind of phrase. I want a phrase that embodies strength, community, and family without actually saying that or being obvious.

So I was driving from one mental health related appointment to the other and thinking about it and I want the tattoo on my inside forearm so I can look at it draw strength from it.

I'm thinking "I carry on" or "I'll carry on" trying to embody Carry On Wayward Sun (for SPN), the Firefly quote “If you can't run, you crawl. If you can't crawl-- you find someone to carry you.” (which sort of embodies community and strength and sharing of burdens) and then just carrying on through my life even when it feels to much and then the way we help each other.

ita would have loved this: [link]

Indeed, Sue.

I don't buzz my hair, won't get a tattoo, don't wear lipstick, and am way too wimpy for martial arts. Don't even watch SPN! It seems to me that there are two ways for me to feel close to ita. The first is to be here, because we both love the Buffistas. And visiting DH's best man who moved back to Jamaica a year or so ago is now higher on my list. I will surely shed even more tears when I feel the warm Jamaican sand and surf between my toes.

How did you all decide to switch your Facebook picture from the pink gingham? I am having issues because it feels so final, and I don't switch a lot as a rule.

I haven't been able to switch mine yet. I was considering switching it to the ultrasound picture but the couldn't decide if that would freak people out as a profile pic, so I left the pink gingham.

I needed someone to be able to recognize me so the switch was made.

I had a thing to switch to that made it seem like the right move.

I generally don't wear makeup, but I bought some Black Honey because. Actually wore it at work one day when I needed some extra perking up, and one of my coworkers mentioned it was a good colour on me and I nearly burst into tears. But in a good way.

I had an occasion to post a picture of Storm in full wrath mode, and it seemed like a good transition - not pink gingham, but still itaesque.

It felt like time.

I went into cheese for half mourning, then brought back LLAP for Nimoy.

"Cheese for half mourning" is a lovely, funny phrase.

Lee, I finally got my package (mix up at package place). Thank you. It's a skeleton hands choker, btw. I remember ita discussing skeleton jewelry and thought it might be some of that.

Still seems so weird. So unbelievable.