Allyson, we're here for you, and I'm glad to hear that your mom is there for you, too. Also, you are an awesome and clever and creative person.
Don't worry, we're sure to spot Faith first. She's like this cleavagy slut-bomb walking around 'Ooh, check me out, I'm wicked-cool, I'm five-by-five.'
Willow ,'Get It Done'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Anne W. - Sep 17, 2014 1:59:59 am PDT #6346 of 30000
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
sarameg - Sep 17, 2014 2:14:34 am PDT #6347 of 30000
I woke up thinking I'd copied the config file to the wrong server.
Which of course I didn't, because we wouldn't have gotten things running late last night. Also, I checked that fucker out of paranoia some ridiculous number of times. Chill out, brain.
Theodosia - Sep 17, 2014 3:02:55 am PDT #6348 of 30000
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"
Allyson, you're truly one of my heroes. My amateur guess is that your brain is presently undergoing a process not unlike 'climate change' that brings weird swings of feeling until it settles down into a new normal that will be warmer and more tropical.
Um, metaphor may have gotten away from me there. When I first went on Paxil I was joking about "science experiments WITH MY BRAIN!" to keep it from being too terrifying. And that was mild steps (I could stop taking the pills any time I wanted) to what you're going through.
meara - Sep 17, 2014 4:14:11 am PDT #6349 of 30000
Hugs or pats or smiles and waves from a few feet away, whatever would be reassuring but not too much, Allyson. :) You can do it! The middle of any process usually seems like the worst, I'd think.
I slept 11 hours last night, and then my alarm went off this morning and woke me from a sound sleep, from a dream about playing some sort of boad/word game with friends (who were not people I really know) and some random dude who was in our booth with friends of his (??) who left but he wanted to play the game. And just before that a dream about some sort of race that some guy I knew/was dating (??) was supposed to run in, but we'd forgotten to plug in a phone, so nobody called to say "where are you" and he was very mad he woke up only a few minutes before the race. Or something. Dreams are weird.
sumi - Sep 17, 2014 4:47:24 am PDT #6350 of 30000
Art Crawl!!!
Random: I'm thoroughly enjoying all the Richard III updates.
Tom Scola - Sep 17, 2014 5:18:16 am PDT #6351 of 30000
Remember that the frontier of the Rebellion is everywhere. And even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
My Wednesday morning therapy appt. tends to be more productive than my afternoon sessions because my brain is in a different state, but oh, God, I'm just fucking drained the rest of the day.
I have so much anger inside of me that can't let out--I'm afraid to let it out.
Sparky1 - Sep 17, 2014 5:44:47 am PDT #6352 of 30000
Librarian Warlord
Happy Birthday, Lee!
Connie Neil - Sep 17, 2014 5:48:47 am PDT #6353 of 30000
brillig
still think Richard should be buried in York.
Amy - Sep 17, 2014 5:51:36 am PDT #6354 of 30000
Because books.
Happy birthday, Lee! With cake!
tommyrot - Sep 17, 2014 5:52:49 am PDT #6355 of 30000
Sir, it's not an offence to let your cat eat your bacon. Okay? And we don't arrest cats, I'm very sorry.
Birthday Happies, Lee!