Dude, no fucking way we'd let you end up homeless.
Your brain is kinda literally afire right now. It's scary. And probably doing some weird ass feedback shit that is not terribly comforting, I dunno. Just..the next thing in front of you. Love you.
I hate to break it to you, oh impotent one, but you're not the big bad anymore, you're not even the kind of naughty.
Xander ,'Showtime'
Natter 73: Chuck Norris only wishes he could Natter
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
sarameg - Sep 16, 2014 6:56:10 pm PDT #6339 of 30000
Allyson - Sep 16, 2014 7:02:44 pm PDT #6340 of 30000
Wait, is this real-world child support, where the money goes to buy food for the kids, or MRA fantasyland child support where the women just buy Ferraris and cocaine? -Jessica
Part of it is the memory issue. My mom is here and I don't know how she got here. I don't understand a lot of what's happening around me.
sarameg - Sep 16, 2014 7:13:33 pm PDT #6341 of 30000
That's got to be terribly disorienting and frightening, especially for someone like you, independent and in charge. (Would be for me.) I want to tell you to leave your trust in those around you, let it go, but, yeah, that's sooo damn easy, even when you're dealing with what you're used to, brainwise.@@
Do what gravitates towards comfort, we'll be here, making sure you are safe.
SuziQ - Sep 16, 2014 7:19:33 pm PDT #6342 of 30000
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
The day of the dead pots and plantings you did are beautiful, Allyson.
DavidS - Sep 16, 2014 7:46:42 pm PDT #6343 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Part of it is the memory issue. My mom is here and I don't know how she got here. I don't understand a lot of what's happening around me.
I'm sure that's worse than disorienting. Hard to even know yourself when you can't connect the dots.
But this is a transitional period and you will come out on the other side. You will be whole, and wholly yourself. The colors brighter.
Hang on. You're almost there.
beth b - Sep 16, 2014 8:11:24 pm PDT #6344 of 30000
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
I'm so glad your mom is there with you. I trust that you will make it through
Atropa - Sep 16, 2014 9:33:40 pm PDT #6345 of 30000
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.
Allyson, I think of you a lot. You're amazing, smart, talented, and you're taking steps to take care of yourself. All of those things are so, so huge and important!
I'm really glad your mom is there with you. You'll get through this.
Anne W. - Sep 17, 2014 1:59:59 am PDT #6346 of 30000
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
Allyson, we're here for you, and I'm glad to hear that your mom is there for you, too. Also, you are an awesome and clever and creative person.
sarameg - Sep 17, 2014 2:14:34 am PDT #6347 of 30000
I woke up thinking I'd copied the config file to the wrong server.
Which of course I didn't, because we wouldn't have gotten things running late last night. Also, I checked that fucker out of paranoia some ridiculous number of times. Chill out, brain.
Theodosia - Sep 17, 2014 3:02:55 am PDT #6348 of 30000
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"
Allyson, you're truly one of my heroes. My amateur guess is that your brain is presently undergoing a process not unlike 'climate change' that brings weird swings of feeling until it settles down into a new normal that will be warmer and more tropical.
Um, metaphor may have gotten away from me there. When I first went on Paxil I was joking about "science experiments WITH MY BRAIN!" to keep it from being too terrifying. And that was mild steps (I could stop taking the pills any time I wanted) to what you're going through.