omg meara is so smart. ARE YOU TURNING INTO SCRAPPY!!!???!?
Jasmine ,'Power Play'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
I don't know. I'm objectively sucking right now and don't know how to pull out of it. And if I talk about it, with Tim or anyone, it has to start with a discussion about how much I'm sucking and the ways in which I'm sucking, and I don't want to have that conversation because it's shameful. So a lot of it is my stupid pride, I get that. And it's not helping me, I also get that.
It doesn't help that a friend told me, unsolicited (I'm paraphrasing here), "Yup, this is basically what your life is going to be from now on." She's not a psychic or a life coach so her "advice" (such as it is) is suspect. But it really didn't help.
much ~ma for those who are having a hard time right now.
I love dreams. They are so straightforward sometimes.
Other peoples issues are distracting. Isn't that why people watch soap operas? I figure if I get a flat tire or something, I'm going to go on a killing spree and laugh my head off at my arraignment.
ARE YOU TURNING INTO SCRAPPY!!!???!?
Hahahah! I wish.
I get that thing where I have loads of shame around how much I suck too. I don't have any good advice for how to unload that shame. But I do know that it's best not to wallow in it, and to try and counter it with feelings of love and gratitude.
Hahahah! I wish.
Don't worry, I often wish I could be Meara, what with the dancing and funniness and the traveling and the killer smile.
Tom is currently going through something similar and I honestly can't see why he thinks he's a failure. It's baffling and frustrating. And makes me want to snuggle him for hours until he can let it go.
ION, our old house continues to haunt us and fuck up our lives. Fuck you, old house.
I may be in need of an alibi, if this day continues like it has. Multiple students are pissing me off on different projects at the same time. I keep thinking of that Woody Woodpecker episode of "If only Woody had gone straight to the police, non of this would have ever happened". Please, students, listen to me! I have knowledge. Experience. Why must you over complicate things?
::sigh::
o god. another one. I'm getting close to going thermonuclear on them (because going Medieval isn't good enough).