therapy was a fucking disaster.
And what's the fun in becoming an immortal demon if you're not regular, am I right?
The Mayor ,'End of Days'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
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askye - Feb 10, 2016 11:24:32 am PST #23247 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
Zenkitty - Feb 10, 2016 11:28:28 am PST #23248 of 30002
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Oh, dear, askye. Are you okay?
askye - Feb 10, 2016 11:33:13 am PST #23249 of 30002
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not the worst I've been but it's difficult because I don't have a great connection with this therapist. I don't think it's a good fit and we jumped in the deep end.
I don't know what to do about that.
I wanted to come home and just.. I don't know, fall apart and I couldn't because E was here and I couldn't just hide in my room either and he didn't want to do his homework or finish his Valentine's or pay attention. I'm realizing I like kids in small doses and there's not goign to be a lot of small doses.
Right now I'm alone but only for another hour.
Mom freaks out or gets angry or just doesn't understand.
And I keep thinking about self harm which I haven't done and I won't but it's just one more thing to deal with.
Liese S. - Feb 10, 2016 11:54:30 am PST #23250 of 30002
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
That's hard, askye.
Is there anything particular you can do as a safety plan to avoid self-harm?
billytea - Feb 10, 2016 11:59:14 am PST #23251 of 30002
You were a wrong baby who grew up wrong. The wrong kind of wrong. It's better you hear it from a friend.
I'm sorry, askye. That's too much to deal with.
askye - Feb 10, 2016 12:20:23 pm PST #23252 of 30002
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I'm distracting myself for the most part.
I may try to reach out to the therapist tomorrow.
JZ - Feb 10, 2016 12:31:37 pm PST #23253 of 30002
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
askye, would it help to have someone call or IM you? If so, I'll happily do it (and I bet many other Bitches will too), and if not, just know that we're all sending you all the ~ma we've got.
askye - Feb 10, 2016 12:38:45 pm PST #23254 of 30002
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I appreciate but I think I'm going to lie down for awhile and see if I feel better.
Laura - Feb 10, 2016 3:44:55 pm PST #23255 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
I hope the bit of alone time and rest helped, askye.
askye - Feb 10, 2016 4:59:20 pm PST #23256 of 30002
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I don't know if I feel all that better but I was able to make dinner.