I wonder if it's just the effect of the weekend. Too much time to think. A heavy load of "why the hell bother" on me tonight.
Maybe I've always been here.
Early ,'Objects In Space'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
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Connie Neil - Jul 13, 2014 6:46:52 pm PDT #12195 of 30002
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Burrell - Jul 13, 2014 6:50:08 pm PDT #12196 of 30002
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Confident and outgoing is good, but you can be confident and outgoing AND willing to commit. I say hold out for someone like that.
Burrell - Jul 13, 2014 6:50:40 pm PDT #12197 of 30002
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
I'm sorry it's a hard night, Connie.
Connie Neil - Jul 13, 2014 6:54:16 pm PDT #12198 of 30002
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It feels like forever, but it hasn't even been two weeks yet.
sj - Jul 13, 2014 7:00:40 pm PDT #12199 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I'm sorry, Connie. Grief is sneaky that way, it comes and goes in waves.
sarameg - Jul 13, 2014 7:11:19 pm PDT #12200 of 30002
There will be times when it feels like 2 seconds ago moments after you feel like you've gotten so far forward and beyond, it's ok. Sucks unbelievably. Try your best not to beat yourself up for feeling whatever you feel, but resenting the hell out of it all is to be expected.
Connie Neil - Jul 13, 2014 7:32:33 pm PDT #12201 of 30002
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I sleep with the light on. But I always did when he wasn't there. There are worse things in the world than not being able to wake up in the dark alone.
WindSparrow - Jul 13, 2014 8:41:19 pm PDT #12202 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
It feels like forever, but it hasn't even been two weeks yet.
Time gets to be very wibbly wobbly after a loss. Awareness of the passage of time can be weird. "It has been 5000 minutes. It has now been 5001 minutes. I should feel differently. I should feel something about this time. No, that's silly. The time doesn't matter. There are only two times. Before This Death and After This Death. It has now been 5002... no make that 5007 minutes. Wait, what happened to minutes 5003-5006? Did I really just lose them by thinking this crap?"
Connie Neil - Jul 14, 2014 8:09:07 am PDT #12203 of 30002
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Interesting psychological insight: I'm needing to learn to do things competently just for myself, instead of for the approval of someone else. I've always had that issue, that my own satisfaction is not sufficient reason to do something.
edited because English to make sentences good.
Liese S. - Jul 14, 2014 8:12:46 am PDT #12204 of 30002
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
Yeah, that's an important one to learn. Hard, though. Especially because we get societal conditioning to depreciate our capabilities.