Oh, sj, so much! Thinking about you as you walk through this.
'Safe'
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I do not have the energy to spend trying to convince people I'm okay today. I'm also trying to find the spoons to go to Trader Joe's. The pouring rain isn't helping.
It is okay not to be okay. Shoving spoons through the intertubes.
sj, I'm so sorry. I hope for the best possible outcome, and the strength to deal with it. Much love to you and TCG.
And as you kind people (including you, sj) have told me countless times, it's OK to not be OK. It's a valid a feeling as any other.
I know it is fine to not be okay right now, but I still feel people are expecting me to reassure them that I'm fine.
Screw them sj. You just need to deal with you and TCG. And even with that, mostly YOU. Other people just need to be supportive and if they aren't, then they need to back off for a while.
When my mom feels like crap but doesn't want to discuss it she always responds "I'm just peachy dewy" to our inquires of how she is feeling. At this point we know it means to lay off. You don't need the pressure of having to be okay for anyone else.
Feel what you feel and perhaps answer that you WILL BE fine and leave it future tense if you don't want to discuss it further.
What Suzi and Laura said. I'm sorry if I added to it.
I know it is fine to not be okay right now, but I still feel people are expecting me to reassure them that I'm fine.
Fuck them and their expectations. Not your problem! (...life would be easier if we could all manage that, eh?)
I'm sorry if I added to it.
What? No, absolutely not.
We're still doing Father's Day at our house. I really don't want to, but TCG does. I did however reschedule our theatre tickets for tomorrow to a couple of weeks from now because I don't have enough spoons for that too.