All good thoughts to you and TCG, sj.
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
On one hand I get it, much like when people wish for the 10 fingers and toes, or "as long as it's healthy," But, yes, that shit makes me uncomfortable too. And I once caught hell from the outlawa because they were worried that baby M wasn't doing as they expected and I said "Well, maybe she has a disability.(She's fine.) But I wasn't aware that what they heard was that she wasn't a keeper and they might have to throw her back. They *freaked* pf course there is a lot of disability in my family and...less visible ones in theirs. But they had, like, ten grandkids, although that might have been an insensitive time to play the odds, hindsight tells me.
But, you know, my parents were right to worry. So my default is never "Don't be ridiculous.(and early intervention could be important) It happens. Am I recruiting? Fuck no. But there are as many things I love about life as I hate.
Can someone go beat up the people who keep telling me that it is better to find out now that there is something wrong? I find it a highly insensitive thing to say to someone with a disability.
I've never wished for Krav skills so much before in my life. Jehoshaphat.
Oh, sj, so much! Thinking about you as you walk through this.
I do not have the energy to spend trying to convince people I'm okay today. I'm also trying to find the spoons to go to Trader Joe's. The pouring rain isn't helping.
It is okay not to be okay. Shoving spoons through the intertubes.
sj, I'm so sorry. I hope for the best possible outcome, and the strength to deal with it. Much love to you and TCG.
And as you kind people (including you, sj) have told me countless times, it's OK to not be OK. It's a valid a feeling as any other.
I know it is fine to not be okay right now, but I still feel people are expecting me to reassure them that I'm fine.
Screw them sj. You just need to deal with you and TCG. And even with that, mostly YOU. Other people just need to be supportive and if they aren't, then they need to back off for a while.