Totally untrue, Maria. Tough I know when you're in that funk it's hard to believe. Or you start thinking "we'll if they REALLY knew me they wouldn't say that". Also untrue...but regardless we know you well enough to know that you are a wonderful person.
Giles: I'm sure we're all perfectly safe. Dawn: We're safe. Right. And Spike built a robot Buffy to play checkers with. Tara: It sounded convincing when I thought it.
'Dirty Girls'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
meara - Apr 24, 2013 8:41:39 am PDT #29284 of 30001
Burrell - Apr 24, 2013 8:44:12 am PDT #29285 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
You can hang out here today Maria, we'll give you lots of hugs and affirmation. You ARE lovable!
Laura - Apr 24, 2013 8:48:11 am PDT #29286 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
Maria, it ain't true. Trust me on this, if you sucked we would totally let you know. I have nothing but love and admiration for you. You have really set yourself on a positive path forward. Let go of anyone or anything that doesn't belong along that path with you.
Connie Neil - Apr 24, 2013 8:49:05 am PDT #29287 of 30001
brillig
It's horrible when you wake up in Bizarro World. Tomorrow will be Maria Is Awesome World.
Maria - Apr 24, 2013 8:51:08 am PDT #29288 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Internal and external. Job search is barely moving along. I'm still stuck in the loop of not being sure if Rob ever really loved me. Wondering if I'm making a mistake in moving back to PA. Tired of walking into an empty house. Tired of not having anyone who will just hold me and shut out the world for a little while. Tired of everyone getting pregnant and having babies.
It's all constant reminders of what I don't have, and maybe what I never had. Yes, I do realize I have a lot of wonderful things in my life--my family, you all, my true friends--but lately I haven't been able to gain perspective like I want.
Maria - Apr 24, 2013 8:55:13 am PDT #29289 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
And I'm totally whining. Which just feeds into it. Buck up and deal.
Connie Neil - Apr 24, 2013 8:59:04 am PDT #29290 of 30001
brillig
Whining is like draining the nasty muck out of the bottom of the water heater. It needs to be done and it's icky, but you have to do it to clean things out.
Beverly - Apr 24, 2013 9:07:51 am PDT #29291 of 30001
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
So do it here, where we don't mind, and can maybe help a little. You are definitely loveable (met you, once upon a time. Loveable, I can vouch), and loved. Loved both for reason, and just because you're Maria.
DavidS - Apr 24, 2013 9:09:39 am PDT #29292 of 30001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
And I'm totally whining. Which just feeds into it. Buck up and deal.
You've been doing a lot of bucking up and dealing lately, and moving forward. There's no shame in feeling weary of it, or wanting to be further along.
Moving is absolutely the right thing to do. You won't be coming back to the same empty house, haunted with memories.
You've already physically changed yourself, and become much stronger.
You are loved.
Steph L. - Apr 24, 2013 9:11:55 am PDT #29293 of 30001
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe
That's a lot of complicated stuff in your brain. It's better to talk about it than to keep it inside and create an insano feedback loop. Because that feedback loop? Is not your friend.