I'm beginning to suspect it will always suck at least a little, Maria.
'Shells'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
{{{Maria}}}
Mixed emotions make us human. You can be happy for them and have it be a little sad for you at the same time, Maria.
Yes, this. Many hugs for you.
Hugs, Maria. Mixed emotions are totally natural, and the mix will shift over time.
{{{{{Maria}}}}} What everyone else said.
Thanks, all. I'm getting to a really good place, but there are still things that sting. I have a feeling this particular one will do so for a while.
I never expected to not be a mom, let alone a widow at 39.
((Maria))
It is such a painful process. I'm so sorry.
Maria, in my 59 years absolutely nothing has ever turned out the way I expected. I think I might be at a place where I comfortably just go with the flow. I know for sure that I no longer have expectations.
We have no control over anything except our own thoughts and actions and I am so very impressed and proud of the positive strides you have made in those.
What Laura said so well, Maria. (Except for the 59 part. Sorry, Laura.)