Hugs, Maria. Mixed emotions are totally natural, and the mix will shift over time.
Anybody can be a prop class clown.
Xander ,'Touched'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
smonster - Mar 06, 2013 1:59:44 pm PST #27111 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
sj - Mar 06, 2013 2:25:03 pm PST #27112 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
{{{{{Maria}}}}} What everyone else said.
Maria - Mar 06, 2013 3:49:45 pm PST #27113 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Thanks, all. I'm getting to a really good place, but there are still things that sting. I have a feeling this particular one will do so for a while.
I never expected to not be a mom, let alone a widow at 39.
askye - Mar 06, 2013 3:53:34 pm PST #27114 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
((Maria))
Pix - Mar 06, 2013 4:14:32 pm PST #27115 of 30001
The status is NOT quo.
It is such a painful process. I'm so sorry.
Laura - Mar 06, 2013 4:22:02 pm PST #27116 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
Maria, in my 59 years absolutely nothing has ever turned out the way I expected. I think I might be at a place where I comfortably just go with the flow. I know for sure that I no longer have expectations.
We have no control over anything except our own thoughts and actions and I am so very impressed and proud of the positive strides you have made in those.
Amy - Mar 06, 2013 4:58:06 pm PST #27117 of 30001
Because books.
What Laura said so well, Maria. (Except for the 59 part. Sorry, Laura.)
Zenkitty - Mar 06, 2013 5:06:08 pm PST #27118 of 30001
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Also echoing Laura. I'm always surprised by my life.
And my power is out after the little snowstorm. Boo.
Steph L. - Mar 06, 2013 5:13:37 pm PST #27119 of 30001
I look more rad than Lutheranism
We have no control over anything except our own thoughts and actions and I am so very impressed and proud of the positive strides you have made in those.
Some people get fossilized in their life as soon as it deviates from their expectations, and they seem to take a grim satisfaction in pointing to The Moment After Which Their Life Would Never Have Any Goodness Ever Again. Not just old coots, either -- it happens to people in their 30s all the time.
But Maria, even though your life is emphatically not what you expected, you aren't just stubbornly pointing backwards and saying "Well, I guess NOW the rest of my life will suck." You're saying, "Okay, let's see what's next." And the choice to do that is tremendous.
Burrell - Mar 06, 2013 5:29:01 pm PST #27120 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Yes yes! What Steph and Laura said. You are an amazing woman, Maria.