Cass, my darling, I am so sorry.
I hope this helps.
Shir, hello!!
Guys, writing my post a few minutes ago gave me the kick in the ass to contact a client and ask for a week more on a project, which has been freaking my shit and adding my my depression over this arm.
He wrote back 2 minutes later and was all "You're going through a rough patch that's not your fault. Doing it right is better than doing it quickly. Take you time."
Readers, I wept a little weep. I feel like a HUGE weight is off my shoulders.
smonster, you totally DON'T want to visit now! My house is like a level 4 biocontam zone! But I am going to clean my office for 15 minutes, and then take a shower. And make an appointment to get my brows waxed tomorrow. Fuck this depression; I'ma put it in a chokehold...with my thighs, natch.
I wish Plei or Jilli lived closer; I need help dyeing my hair. I am going to get back to normal come hell or high water. (The one time I mentioned to D that he could help, I thought he was going to faint. Wuss.)
Is Strix who I would guess she is? Regardless, yikes Strix. Here's to better days for you, and Vortex and Teppy, too.
Strix is the same person who talked about Ringer on FB with you, Cindy.
I changed my username for anonymity purposes a few weeks ago.
And thanks!
Oh, then not who I thought, and now I'm not sure. Pm me on fb, please.
Never mind, Strix. I figured it out. Well, that's a baldfaced lie. I back channelled it out. Get better, honey.
can only say that I hope having us here to say the kinds of things you can't say out loud is as much a refuge for you as it was for me.
Fuck yes. I have told you people things I won't tell my own family over the last four months. I seriously would not be half as OK as I am without this place.
{{{Strix}}}
Fuck yes. I have told you people things I won't tell my own family
WROD.
Er, sorry, Cindy about the obfuscation! Glad you figured it out. I R ME!
Fuck yes. I have told you people things I won't tell my own family
YES. This. Talking to you people let's me get things out of my system, and then go "Oh hey, I should do something about that."
Cindy! Strix! Shir! Yaaay peoples.
And happy birthday, Hec!
Cindy! Strix! Shir! Yaaay peoples.
What Jilli said.
{{{Strix}}} I'm sorry things have been so difficult lately. I hope as your arm heals and you can type more, you'll begin to feel better.
can only say that I hope having us here to say the kinds of things you can't say out loud is as much a refuge for you as it was for me.
Fuck yes. I have told you people things I won't tell my own family over the last four months. I seriously would not be half as OK as I am without this place.
It is. It is a sanctuary.
I mean, mostly that means I am crying now but at least that is better than the numb depression I've been in for a couple of days. Because numb depression when I am even alone even is bad. I hate crying in front of people but I did in a parking lot today anyway and I am doing it now here. Which is kinda a step forward.
I don't know anything concrete on Dad. I just have lost most of my optimism and I am waiting for some tests that I don't think are going to be great news. And being so far from the house is really isolating in terms of communication.
