I know I'm a bad poet, but I'm a good man. All I ask is that... is that you try to see me—

William ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Spike's Bitches 46: Don't I get a cookie?  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Burrell - Jul 09, 2011 8:08:35 pm PDT #25098 of 30000
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!

Sending good vibes to your grandmother and your family, Pix.


Pix - Jul 09, 2011 9:16:17 pm PDT #25099 of 30000
The status is NOT quo.

Thanks, Burrell. I’m trying to be zen about it since there isn’t much I can do until I get home on the 14th, but I worry especially about my mom dealing with all of it on her own.


WindSparrow - Jul 10, 2011 1:52:54 am PDT #25100 of 30000
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.

Lots of ~ma for Pix's grandmother.

Continued pet~ma for those who need it.


sj - Jul 10, 2011 5:13:17 am PDT #25101 of 30000
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."

Pix, ~ma for your grandmother and for you and your mom as well.


smonster - Jul 10, 2011 7:43:10 am PDT #25102 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Could you share the recipe for this? I've been hankering for a carrot slaw, oddly enough, to the point where I would actually make it myself.

Kathy's recipe is pretty close! It's the only thing I ate in Moldova that I make here. I saute the garlic and there are no onions in mine, and I use ground coriander. But yeah, that's the stuff.

I may be discovering that Benadryl capules make me sleepier than Benadryl gelcaps.

St.W told me that Benedryl puts you to sleep, but lowers your sleep quality - you don't reach "phase 4" sleep.

(THAT would be an example of 'likes carrots.')

Speaking of, we went out for dinner and drinks last night, and I stayed at his place (as did Frankie). ::sigh:: I really, REALLY hate the fact that I have a hard time sleeping in a shared bed. I ended up on the love seat, and then the floor. Stoopid hip, stoopid anxiety, stoopid stoopid. He took me to brunch this morning, and is now at work but we're planning to hang out later. Last night was fun - a friend and her boyfriend met us for drinks, and I discovered a new favorite drink*, and St.W and I had a very intense conversation with a woman (well, she had an intense conversation with us) who just moved here from Austin and was still dressed in her Running of the Bulls** outfit. Frankie went to the bar with us, and everyone adored him as usual. A large pit bull tried to LOVE him love him and Frankie firmly told him no.

Y'all, for real - it's been thirteen years since I dated someone who I was this into***, instead of crushing on someone unavailable or dating someone I was never all that into romantically. I keep waiting for the bad. I mean, I know I'm in honeymoon phase and things will eventually get on my nerves and stuff, that I can deal with... but I find myself waiting for something to ruin it all. I know it's largely out of my control and all I can do is stay present and honest, so that's what I"m doing.

* Cajun lemonade - Pimm's, lemon vodka, soda, and a bit of tabasco.

** [link] (I am SO doing this next year)

*** and THAT was tumultuous First Love/First Girlfriend, which did not last and was not super healthy.


smonster - Jul 10, 2011 7:49:22 am PDT #25103 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Ack! I knew I forgot something! Pix, lots of ~ma to you and your family. Please keep us posted, love.


Nora Deirdre - Jul 10, 2011 7:54:37 am PDT #25104 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

Running of the Bulls

I don't know why I didn't hear about this last year, but I didn't even know about until people started talking about on FB a couple weeks ago. Crazy. Next year I definitely want to go.

Did you guys go to Mimi's?

It took me a looooong time (like, a year or so) to get fully comfy sleeping in the same bed with Tom, so don't be so hard on yourself about it.

Ugh, need to get ready to get to the Howlin' Wolf for the fundraiser I'm helping with- gotta be there at 1pm, and the thing doesn't even start till 5pm! And I'll be there till 9pm.


beekaytee - Jul 10, 2011 8:05:47 am PDT #25105 of 30000
Compassionately intolerant

Aw smonster. I've never actually been able to sleep in the same bed with another person. I've become much, MUCH more comfortable with it over time. Interestingly, I've found that many of my bedmates have been a little relieved. Everybody gets to be comfortable. (Heh. Not like I actually _have_ a bedmate, nor have had that many!)

all I can do is stay present and honest
Sweetie, if you can do this, the 'hard' stuff will be far less than you might expect.


Laga - Jul 10, 2011 8:12:25 am PDT #25106 of 30000
You should know I'm a big deal in the Resistance.

I like falling asleep with someone else but I wish I could be magically transporated to my own bed to wake up in the morning.


Zenkitty - Jul 10, 2011 8:19:40 am PDT #25107 of 30000
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.

~ma for Pix's grandmother!

St.W told me that Benedryl puts you to sleep, but lowers your sleep quality - you don't reach "phase 4" sleep.

This sounds right to me. I sleep but wake not feeling rested, not wanting to get out of bed, just wanting to go back to sleep.

Y'all, for real - it's been thirteen years since I dated someone who I was this into

I am all giggly on your behalf! So adorable!